Corgiani 🏳️‍⚧️

You can bet if I see one of these fucking things anywhere, it ain't getting back up

"dynamic stability" ain't mean shit to a hammer.

My little boy, you were so brave and so trusting that day. I know you knew we were doing what we could. I know because you couldn't stop kissing my hand right before you passed.

I'm so sorry I couldn't do more for you. I'm so sorry it took me so long to share this pain.

I'm still not okay.

It was all so traumatic for my boy, not a good way to leave for his next adventure. I comforted him as best I could, took him to a specialist ER. We took him outside to lay in the grass one last time. He had three Churus. I would have given him so much more had it not been so sudden.

CW pet death

I feel horrible for how long it's taken me to share this, but Professor had a medical emergency a month ago, blood clots. Prognosis was extremely poor and he was in so much pain... With the vet's guidance and blessing, we chose to say goodbye.

Human children are at risk of gator attacks. Not your average person.

I'm unsurpised that with the recent anti-wildlife bills that this is the kind of stupid shit they're doing with the Florida concentration camp.

Since 1948, there have been about 450 gator attacks on humans, only 28 of which were fatal.

The reason that small prey is preferred by the Florida alligator has to do with the general size of other swamp fauna. Floridian animals are typically smaller, like Key Deer and Florida Black Bears.

As a born and raised Floridian, this is very rarely how gators work. These people that built this shit know as much about gators as they do human beings, which is not at all.

Florida gators are mostly docile, hunting on small prey once or twice a week, rarely going for something larger.

Okay I fixed it

X-Files

Bad AI Overview suggesting Di-mun-it-ive Mi-ni-a-ture Tee-ny-ti-ny Are all three syllable words.

Not a single suggestion has three-syllables.

Hey I normally try to just accept that libs can be ignorant on things, but what do you actually think this means, and what do you mean by it by posting it without commentary

Because this reads like you're a Nazi sympathizer, darling.

Holy shit, Evolution Worlds...

Not often you see someone manage to get more than a word of truth in.

Thank you for reading.

I'm sorry to everyone that I gave that pain to. I'm sorry to anyone that trusted me.

I'm sorry I didn't get help sooner and that I didn't recognize how out-of-control I became.

I've been working with my ex-spouse to try to help clean up a lot of the lingering hurt and trauma I caused.

There is no apology that anyone can give for this type of behavior that could merit forgiveness.

Only sustained action toward being a better person, and a large part of that is accountability.

I do own my actions and the pain I caused. I'm doing what I can to set the foundation of repair.
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There's countless things I've changed to try to be a better person. And while a lot of what I experienced was the result of feelings brought on by extreme levels of Estradiol, the actions were still mine.

I caused the pain to not just my spouse, but all of the people I left in my wake.
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I dug a hole so deep for myself and had no supports to keep it stable and it collapsed on me

My spouse kicked me out, and I was forced to start to try to make a difference in my life.

Kind of.

I had to bumble through a good while of messes, denial, and hurt in therapy and with friends first.
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Corgiani 2024

A girl I started having an affair with helped me to adjust my levels, because the doctors out here caused me to crash badly after being on such insanely high dosages for so long.

My levels finally started to go down to normal healthier levels, but by this point there was no going back to anything.

After coming out here to Colorado, I started getting in touch with doctors to get my Rxs setup.

I got some bloodtests and that's when one of my doctors said, "Hey what the fuck are your E levels?"

I also started to get to know the trans community out here, looking for both sex and advice.

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Corgiani 2024

What didn't help is as my behavior got more and more out-of-control, my spouse's reactions got more and more extreme. Our marriage became abusive and neglectful to us both, and it was terrifying.

We prayed that moving to Colorado would fix things, but it wasn't Florida that was breaking things.
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They encouraged me to lie and cheat more, as long as they could watch.

It became the norm for me, and it was constantly encouraged. The whole time I was being told by them that my spouse was crazy and unreasonable, and I would argue to defend my spouse, until aspects of what they said were true
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I was also just smoking and drinking waaayyy more than I should have been to try to deal with everything.

One of the affairs I started, became my spouse and I's first poly relationship. And that experience was anything but ethical non-monagamy.

My partner at the time loved showing me off.
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Corgiani 2024

Corgiani 2024

I would lie, manipulate, blame, and do whatever I could to fuck my way through most of the shit I didn't want to acknowledge was overwhelming me

Having sex was a way to not think about the impending legislation, how close we were to homelessness, how miserable my degree was making me, my family
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Corgiani 2024

Corgiani 2024

Eventually, I kind of just let myself lose control. I needed to be touched by anyone.

Nothing else mattered, and I didn't see it as a problem. I didn't ask for help, I just thought, "This is who I am now, and I love it"

I started actively cheating whenever possible.

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Corgiani 2023

Corgiani 2023

That is until I realized I could just not get caught.

My flirts became more aggressive and with intent, and there were plenty of men willing to take up my advances.

I didn't do anything then, but the idea that I could filled me with so much joy and power. The attention was indescribable.

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Corgiani 2022

Corgiani 2022

Hypersexuality became my norm, because they flooded a woman with sex hormones.

It no longer felt like I wanted sex, I had a need to constantly have sex all the time.

I was flirting with everyone, doing what I could to capture people's attention but still trying to stay loyal to my spouse.

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