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Currently waiting for our flight home... Which, unfortunately, includes a stopover in Texas. -_-;;

I've never been, and quite frankly, am somewhat annoyed I will be, but literally every flight available today was routed through DFW. Sigh.

Well fuckity fuck fuck, our flight home is canceled because of snow and the next one isn't until Wednesday.

Someday, maybe, I hope to find an idol fan who wants to read my gay idol novel~

/sigh

Hopefully it's sometime before I lose patience and just self-publish it. -_-;;

"another hour"

pffffffft

Oh good, I finished my morning chores early enough I can squeeze in another hour of Blue Prince Mora Jai boxes before work. >.>

Blarrrrrgh. Got hit by a Steam message scam last night. Hadn't heard of it before, and the links looked legit, so I didn't clock it until today. Turns out it's a scam that's been going for, like, a decade. >.<;;

Pretty sure I've locked my account down, but damn. Bummed at myself for falling for it.

Korok Vanish GIF ALT: Korok Vanish GIF

every time linkedin emails that someone searched me

Age verification?

I used to call a number on speed dial every morning to see what the weather was going to be that day.

YouTube video by 天道サン / Tendo Sun / 八九百Project IRIS OUT/ 天道 サン & 一 月一 〈Cover〉

in related news

/flips all the tables

youtu.be/VH_AliDT9h0?...

my oshi just posted a pic of him in locked collar fashion and my bdsm heart is simultaneously exploding and imploding

I started watching the Hana Kimi anime this morning.

It's nice! Fun, and exactly what it should be.

I just wish it had come out...say, twenty years ago?

Because in the end, it really can't compare with the 2007 jdrama.

/sigh

Just got back from seeing Iron Lung! Look, I am *not* a horror movie person, but I honestly really enjoyed it. Would love to watch again with captions, honestly. XD;

PSA: Please do not message an Etsy seller with anything other than a legitimate question. Etsy judges us on our response time, and when you send us a stupid joke, our rating gets docked unless we respond. >.<

I'm sick

the whole house is sick

our oldest cat is wasting away

we have to dig ourselves out of foot of snow

our country is run by fascists who are killing citizens in the street

I'm just

so tired

GDQ felt like a place where I could tell random people that they were awesome, and random people randomly told me that I, too, was awesome.

And for once in my life? I actually kind of believed it.

So yeah, AGDQ was fucking amazing. Best con ever. And I miss it so much. ;_;

At the same time, people I'd never met before gushed over how much they love my work, to the point of wearing my product during their runs.

I keep my business and personal social media presences fairly separate (again, thanks, trauma) but for the first time, I started wondering if I *should*.

But I went to a place where I literally knew absolutely nobody, and not only did I make a new friend, I also successfully met and talked with several people I highly respect.

I'm all too aware of how much my self-esteem relies on outside validation. It's really unhelpful and I do my best to try and counter it, but social trauma really did a number on me that I haven't been able to fully recover from, even thirteen years later.

I've been trying to find the right words for how I felt about AGDQ, and haven't done much except flail about how wonderful it was, and so on. I suspect there's even more still for me to fully describe, but I've realized part of it was just plain old validation.

comic: when it happens I hope people ring bells and blow horns. if I'm asleep I hope to be woken. I won't mind. if I'm in traffic I hope to see revelers. If it causes a traffic jam I won't mind. I don't want to exist a moment not knowing that it has happened.

Lil' comic about hope and longing 💗

We seriously went back to our same seats.

GDQ, you're the BEST.

This horde of ragingly queer nerds are so ridiculously chill and obedient. It's honestly the best.

Fire alarm again! Right during the final run.

Fun fact! It's cold. 😵

Never mind, can't make it to Sunday, I'm now crying over how amazing AGDQ is.

I am so ridiculously exhausted.

This con is amazing.

This week has been amazing.

I am verklempt over how wonderful AGDQ is in person.

I'm gonna post-con crash SO damn hard next week. 😭

As closely as I can! XD

I got to AGDQ and the fire alarm went off.

I am choosing to not take this as an omen. X_x

Yup!

Kinda weird that I'll be spending the week in Pittsburgh.

Weirder yet that I'm going back to the Wyndham. x_x;;

Hoping for a good week, though~ 🤞

I am tired of Earth. These people.