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i can't forget, i can't forgive you

we lost all the love that we had
and i can't pretend it'll ever come back
and i think you're seeing right through me

i feel like every time i talk to you
you're in an awful mood

let's be friends again, okay... minamoto-kun?

it's hard to put it into words
how the holidays will always hurt
i watch the fathers with their little girls
and wonder what i did to deserve this

even when she's next to me we could not be more far apart

i'm a monster

feeling like i'm living in a story already written
am i part of a vision made by somebody else?
pointing fingers at villains but i'm the villain myself

become a supernatural. and be with me forever. you said that, didn't you? that it'd be okay.

i can't get a grip, but i can't let go
there wasn't anything to hold on to though

god damn you're so worth it
god damn you belong

and if somebody hurts you, i wanna fight
but my hands been broken one too many times
so i'll use my voice, i'll be so fucking rude

i've spent all of the love i saved
we were always a losing game

please don't be in love with someone else
please don't have somebody waiting on you

impossible to understand how you're not coming back
but i can't say it out loud

i'll make it up to you if it's the last thing i ever do

you're supposed to love and protect me

i want your parties, the shark in your water, the scrapes on your knees and the blood that spills over

feel like a leech to everyone around me, unsure and false promises i make

can i shut out this anxiety?

can't stand to look him in the eyes
he gets high just like you, and i'm trying

i swear i won't mind if she's better than i am

pain, i take in stride
you will never ever take away my pride
i get back up with my head held high
and it drives you nuts but at least you try

i wanna be your friend but don't have the self-control

so i never really knew you
god, i really tried to

feels like we're on the edge right now
i wish that I could say i'm proud
i'm sorry that i let you down
i let you down

all that i did to try to undo it, all of my pain and all your excuses

i will prove that the way i used to be is all in the past

i was just a waste of time

i’m sorry i cried
can’t help it half the time
this bleating heart of mine
little lamb in the bright light