Sstorm

Suddenly got a great idea for Shiya’s eyelid💖

Curly eyelid is pretty cute, retains the simplicity I like for player octoling, and adds a layer of elegance.

Though I’ll have to see how that works in 3D

How I really feel…

Either way, I managed to keep myself company and stimulated so that I wasn’t completely overwhelmed by my negativity.

But still, it’s there.

Well after everything, it always feels like I’m the one holding me back.

I held everything to blame, even I am conflicting with myself.

So? What really is the root of all my struggles then? How can I finally get rid of it once and for all?

…I don’t know…yet.

Well, for the past few years I feel like we as a whole got very close. They are so, so important for me, and indeed they are.

But nowadays I feel like I’m getting more and more distant.
“What would they say about me?”
“I don’t want to end up a stranger.”
“How can I fix this… how can I fix me…”

Maybe I’m draining their patience from all this.
This is not the outcome I wanted.

I want to feel closer with others, yet not risking losing them.

As of right now I seems to be on the opposite.

…All those opinions my friend said to me made me feel like a fool, like I’m overthinking everything and anything, being unreasonable as if I like being this way.

…But I don’t hate them, I love them. I just don’t want to lose them yet I want to seek comfort from them.

I tried and tried and…

Sometimes my friends wonders why I can be so melancholic and depressing for no reason.
That I seems to be stuck on the same loop, looking for answers that were right in front of me but neglected.

I wonder why too.
“I have no idea how you can be so melancholic” “I don’t know how to help you.”

Tbh I admire artists who recover quickly from art block, I’ve only been able to draw this all week :'P

So I haven’t uploaded this year huh

coming soon :)

It really ruined a lot of the replayability of side order, considering how RNG heavy it is to get the build you want that is outside of the weapon’s common tones.

My BIGGEST gripe about side order has to be the weapon’s common tones.

With Marina’s hack I can get more chips of the same tone more easily, and this is a good addition for us to make builds.

…But why the hell that I can’t change a weapon’s tone???

(腦補漆彈世界觀：墨汁)
雖然說墨魚(魷魚&章魚)可以隨意切換他們的墨汁顏色，我會覺得它們應該有一個屬於自己/偏好的色彩。

這顏色是反映墨魚的個性還有渴望所產生的，而且也會受當下情緒稍微影響。 隨著墨魚的成長還有心靈上的成熟，他們會漸漸將自己的墨汁固定在一個色彩當中，甚至可能演化出一個屬於自己、獨特的墨汁紋路或風格。

如果兩個墨魚和彼此有著很強烈的羈絆或關係，他們的身體會慢慢的適應、認同，將彼此的墨汁視為一部分。而不會受到傷害或排斥。

因此，墨汁顏色成為一個墨魚能定義自己的一部分，甚至表現出和他人的感情。

等一下再翻中文
有關墨汁，自己發想的一些設定

Now lore wise I’m not sure how well this could fit with the current existing lore since I haven’t done my investigation.
But this setting would be such a interesting way of adding more depth and detail to an inkfish character

If one inkfish formed a very strong bond with another, their body can grow to adapt to each other’s ink color instead of being damaged and repelled against it.

Ink colors will become a very crucial part of one’s identity, and even as a way to show affection.

As inkfishes mature and their mentality develops, they will slowly adapt to a specific color of ink that reflects their personality and desire, even evolving a specific pattern and style unique to oneself.

(Headcanon about ink colors)

Even though inkfish(Inklings&octolings) can change their ink colors the way they want, I’d like to think that they have a specific preferences.
Depending on one’s personality and mentality, they can adapt to a specific ink color better, even becoming their natural color

Saw this image and it really made my day.
Thank you Steven.

我也很想設計一些非墨魚的角色

編寫知雅跟嵐也探索世界的故事是一定的，至於主題是不是漆彈我想可能性暫時還很高...

角色設計畢竟也是我有興趣的一門，所以說不定可以利用斯普拉的世界觀，設計一些獨特的角色?

(是這裡面也有一些墨魚，但是這樣大概可以懂我的意思?)

我想我對於嵐也的設計已經大致上有概念了。
他的性格、特質還有動機我都很清楚，自然也能看出什麼樣的設計適合他。

剩下的就是我該怎麼做出來...3D在我還沒有對整體設計夠了解之前我可能做不到。
所以我在嘗試畫出來
Well... I'm not sure where I'm going with this, but it doesn't look too bad!

Trying not to think about it...
Since it doesn't really do me any good.

Since Bsky is still a fairly small platform and there is not much traction I own, I didn't really care about posting private stuff here.

But maybe someday...

The path is bleak and the vision is dark, but I know that at the end of every tunnel, there is light.

I just gotta... Keep going...

But I know I have to, someday soon.
Running away is not the answer, it never was.
However, until the broken ones are mended, I don't think I will be ready for that conversation.

Despite everything, I'm still not alone, I never were. I'm still standing, looking for that answer.

I don't know how to confront my friends, when she told me that.

She doesn't stand for everyone's opinion, it was just her.
But so far, no reassurance can assure me that the gaps between me and my friends are not becoming bigger and bigger.
So much so that I'm scared of interacting with them.

Ever so often it seems like I kept felling into the same cycle, struggling over the same issue over and over again.

What do I expected from others when I sought their help and advice?

...

Many have given me positive words about me.

They say I'm a decent, mature, and even talented person.
That I'm unique in my own way, that I'm indeed special and has the potentional inside me.
That I'm better than I thought I am.

They are so supportive and kind to me, yet I don't know how to act.

...I can still hurt them.

The issue and concerns persisted inside of me, while others either don't heard of my struggle or don't know how to help me anymore.

And so, even if my delusions of being more and more distant from my friends, can in fact, become a truth.

When other people gave me advice and direction, trying to help me out of this and make me feel better, it always seems like I already tried, that they misunderstood me, and that they don't really help.

Even though deep down, that was not how I really wanted to treat my friends...