natalie <3

bro a guy @ work (not a coworker) asked me if i was single and that shir jump scared

Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust (2000) dir. Yoshiaki Kawajiri

like i understand that sometimes you have to do things that you don’t want to do. but this feels excessive

idk what to do what do i do i went to college and i have a job why does it still hurt so much to just try and live what do i do

and i hate to be constantly lamenting my existence like this but it really truly and utterly feels like neverending torment it’s like every day i step into a suit made of shards of glass and they cut me all day long and i have to pretend that im not in indescribable pain this can’t go on

am i mentally ill? do i need therapy? a psychologist? what is wrong with me why am i unable to function in this world there’s no fucking what everyone else feels like this every day how the fuck would they go on

like surely this is a me issue and not an objective issue with life because if this is inescapable idk how i’m meant to survive the next 70 years

i just don’t know it feels like no matter what i do it isn’t enough and i will never be satisfied

i literally don’t know what to do is this how it’s going to be forever? i get a job and it’s fine at first and then after a month i hate it to the point that i am in tears every morning?

it was fine and then they started changing stuff around and now i spend all of my mornings crying!

and i’m always alone and it feels like im running the place and that’s exactly the opposite of what i wanted

like i was totally cool with my new job until i had to start going all over the place around town every day sometimes multiple times in one day

sometimes i really feel like there’s a timer in my brain that goes off and makes me hate things

aaaaaaahhgggg

group crash out sesh at my place

in the process of trying to paint entei even while staring at him i still have no idea what he looks like

gonna crash out bc of this job

and no matter how much sleep i get im still exhausted every day

growing disillusioned again. my job is objectively fine but it’s so exhausting to my soul. is this all there is in life? work a 9-5 every day get two days off rinse repeat for the rest of my life? until i retire? if i even get to? just to die?

guys what if i became a librarian

Blastoise, made with energy cards #pokemontcg #pokemon #cardart #pokemoncards

so bored

idk I think the hell has gotten too big to fit in a handbasket at this point

i’m so tired i hate getting up early

my new job is so slay

i’m so tired of anxiety keeping me up when i have to work why does this keep happening i though i got over this months ago why is it back

i really hope i don’t regret saying this but im kinda digging my new job so far

have a yone :3 #artoflegends #yone

finally….

i had trouble sleeping last night bc of anxiety and now i’m so fucking tired and i have to leave for work in 15 minutes