TJM.

How do things just keep getting worse 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

really I just wanna be like fuck everything and be mad but i don’t want the judgement from the people around me or to be seen as ungrateful or something 🙃🙃🙃

and it’s a little hard bc I say breaking point, but the problem is that I won’t let myself reach that either which is where a whole bunch of distress is coming from. 🥲 like I keep telling myself I can handle it or there’s reasons it’s this way and it’s okay and I’m trying to be understanding and

I so desperately wanted to feel like I could calm down after the move, but everything not being ready up here has me still in survival mode and honestly I don’t know how much longer my mental health/body can take it because I already felt like I was at a breaking point when I was still in bris

I thought I looked rough and run down in these but maaaaaaan you should see me now 🥲 I am so ready for some R&R after all of this move settles down

my tolerance for things in friendships is so different to other people as well so I just genuinely never know what expectations people want me to meet. 😭

I really do wish that people would just communicate like if you’re gonna act cold pls just say the reason so we can either work on the problem or I can at least understand I’ve done something to hurt you and accept it’s influenced the existing relationship??? I’m not a mind reader 🥲

I am so over online only items for stores that have physical locations. Delivery to the new address is astronomical and the fact I can’t even filter these items out? So shitty 🥲

I’m so excited to not feel like I’m in survival mode for once in my life. I’m looking forward to peace.

One of the art goals is to try and find a simple digital colouring style I like because honestly I hate everything I do in colour???

But also the little peach riot figurines have my heart and I fear if I ever start collecting I am doomed

I just wanna make things I like and that bring me joy and share that with other people every so often after I’ve stockpiled a bunch of excess items I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️

Honestly the dream is able to run a little market stall every so often, have a very simple online store and idk. Maybe try a convention or two? I really don’t feel the desire to do this full time/want the whole song and dance to put it out there on social media and worry about content

My main goal for 2025 is to build my confidence with my creative hobbies and things I make. While I have no desire to live out some hashtag girlboss fantasy, I’d love to put it out there for people who are interested as a casual kind of thing yknow??

I just finished packing up the last of my dice making gear and masters for the move 🥲🥲 I’m absolutely itching to set up the new space though!!

I’m well past the point of being able to mask even a little during all of this in front of everyone and it’s making things very, very hard 🥲 I wish I wasn’t so dissociated while seeing everyone before we go because I feel like I’m just not getting to appreciate it fully

Had a farewell dinner with some of our friends last night and it’s made things feel very real but I also feel very guilty I can’t give everyone my best while I’m so stressed

Sometimes I feel like I’m just destined to live a life tolerated by people but never like, deeply liked??? Idk 🥲🥲

Me as a child: I want to be an important adult who goes to meetings!

Me as an adult: I will do a lot of things, legal and/or morally gray, to avoid meetings.

Leaving my hair alone is already hard enough during all of thisssssss let me have more permanent body stickers

I want a big??? new tattoo so badly 😭😭 my next design was meant to go on the back of my arm but I want something I can look at and and be like ah yes. Different. If it’s not noticeable I don’t feel like it counts for stress therapy 🥲

I’m just really, really hopeful for a good 2025. I want this move to go smoothly. I want to live a happy and peaceful life.

try and push through the agoraphobia so I can feel a bit more free with my day to day. We’ll be living near a craft store, so being able to drive down there on my own would be really lovely, and being able run small errands independently would be incredible.

I really want to try and engage more with the D&D community and hopefully some local craft groups, and wouldn’t mind trying to branch out a little more online again for these things as well. I want to surround myself with things that inspire me, and I want to work with my mental health supports to

Jeremy will have his family up there, but neither of us have any friends in the city we’re moving to. it’s gonna be a really big change and I guess a big motivator to try and get involved more with the communities we’re interested in.

doing a major move as an adult/being out of school and having that as a way to make connections so I’m really nervous, but I’m I’m surprisingly looking forward to learning a new side of me as well.

I absolutely love the new year- I just really enjoy the ~new~ vibe despite knowing nothings really changed, and I guess that’s kind of heightened now by the fact by the end of this month I’ll be living in a new city. It’ll be the furtherest from family I’ve ever lived, and it’s the first time I’ll

I’ve been holding onto these bc they’re makeup-less and I’m high in them and i guess they’re kinda ugly but I also like them weirdly so I’m just gonna dump them here anyway 🤷🏻‍♀️

I don’t think the hand matters in embroidery so we’re somewhat safe!!

I started a Pinterest board so you could say I’ve doomed myself

Oh no someone help I think I want to get into embroidery