MinstrelMuseVR

I'm done chasing you. Do whatever you want. I'm doing my own thing, with or without you involved. I don't care any more.

There are days where I feel like I should just quit streaming entirely.

I'm glad you're gone from my life. You were born a hood rat, and you will die a hood rat. Good riddance.

I'm genuinely tired of Twitch.
Being bombarded with almost 8 minutes of Ads.
No. I'm not buying Twitch Turbo. Let me watch the people I've subbed to. Jesus christ. They will do everything in their power to break adblockers, but won't spend the time improving the viewing experience.

You could give them a million dollars, they'd still find a way to be angry. Like good lord.

I'm not about to have my day messed up because you want to be in a shit mood 24/7. Fuuuck that. Have some ambition, some drive, some motivation, stop being a miserable fuck all the time. It's exhausting to deal with someone who's just pessimistic about absolutely EVERYTHING.

I love VR clout goblins, they will follow/unfollow an account to get a crumb of clout. That's why your dumb ass got suspended the first time. You can keep trying though. I won't reciprocate.

So long gay bowser.

I'm actually angry at something not related to VRC for once. It's real life. These asshole bikers who keep revving up and down my street all night long. Woke me up not once, but twice. It's that fuck ass biker's bar that doesn't close until 2 AM. Got woken up at 9:30 then again just now. FUCK OFF.

I will for the sake of our friendship entirely ignore their existence when it comes to R18 content.Because I am being condsiderate of their feelings of jealousy and I think it's best no longer work together in that regard.

They have a very "Me me me." attitude, claiming I don't think about how they feel when I do things. So they will no longer be involved in any projects I do or future streams. Just that simple. I've considered their feelings and I find it best if we no longer work together on such things. Simple.

I hadn't streamed in awhile and I finally was in the mood to do it as of last night. My stream went well and I was happy with how it turned out. However a close friend was not happy about it due to how I had set up the stream, despite us agreeing to it.

So now I am the asshole.

Never doing another collaboration ever again. Can't do shit without being reprimanded for it. Guess I need to sit in a corner and just labotomize myself and drool like a complete and utter idiot.

I'm so sick and tired of this emotional blackmail.

Hasan Piker is going to be the death of Twitch. Dude is spewing terrorist rhetoric, while live in the US and is wondering why nobody likes him. If this reaches Amazon or reaches a federal level, the US could outright ban Twitch entirely due to him trying to radicalize the masses. FFS man. Stop.

Been listening to a lot of Kino Casino and maybe it's on me, and I normally keep out of gender politics, but there's one thing that stood out to me and bugs me a bit. In any discussion about trans people, it's always popular to rag on MtF, but not a peep is said about FtM. Why is that?

I've locked both of my Twitter accounts, as that platform is also trash for creators. I don't want to be bothered about it either. I'm sick and tired of pretending to be happy when I'm not. I'm miserable. I was flourishing in the beginning and was fine by myself. I wish it had stayed that way.

It's always the shittiest people who become the most popular.
Maybe I should start saying slurs on the timeline, then go "I'm sorry, I'll change." and people will forgive me, make inflammatory takes and get people riled up so I can appear in a Youtube slop video about shitty V-Tubers. Idk man.

I also uninstalled VRChat entirely. I don't want to even bother any more with this god forsaken game. I might as well make a hit piece on it like everyone else, condemning it. 5 years of my life wasted on a platform that doesn't care. The only good thing? I learned Unity.

I don't care if you're reading this either. One day I'm just going to straight up vanish and just make a new name for myself. I'm sick and tired of feeling stressed out over dumb online shit. This was supposed to be me doing things for "myself" not taking care of other people 24/7.

I'm mentally worn out as a content creator too. Burned out on VR, despite getting new base stations. I can't have fun in VR any more like I used to despite spending well over $2k on a full VR set. It's always some fucking drama with people either close to me or in mutual friend circles.

Caught up on Sakamoto Days. I think Episode 12 is this week? Not sure. Either way I'm current. Watched Dr. Stone Season 4 and after that, maybe Dan Dan Dan. My Hero Academia Rivals, eeeeeeeeeeeh....... I kinda fell off MHA when the villains kept winning. Stars & Stripes death is what put me off.

I'm currently downloading FFXI again to play that and just relax. I like playing it and at this point I'm gonna play it just to play it.

Yeah I want to see how it goes. I added it to the Wishlist so I'm going in blind.

I'm in a much better mood than I was last night. Cancelled my stream because I was pretty angry and signed off Discord. Not sure I want to sign back in any time soon. The quiet has been nice. Also I'm pretty bored of VRChat in general now, along with a dead sex drive, so making content is meh rn.

I'm also waiting on the new Runescape game coming out. It's a singleplayer crafting/survival game. Which has me excited, since I love Fantasy stuff a lot.

Monster Hunter Wilds just feels boring to play. It doesn't keep me occupied for some reason and I LOVE Monster Hunter so much, but there's just something nice about going back to an old MMO I played when I was younger, playing it as an adult and enjoying the time with it.

Part of me wants to go back to streaming on Twitch, but I know it's all RNG/Luck based on whether or not you will pop off. I don't want to leave my stream's fate to RNG. If I am going to go back to Twitch I'm probably going to play an MMO that I enjoy instead: Final Fantasy XI.

Hot Take: Openly broadcasting your VR relationship is just inviting trouble to come your way. There's a manner of people who find it satisfying by getting in between and breaking up a happy relationship for the sake of doing it. Doesn't need to be motivated by spite or jealously either.

When those positive feelings run out, they lash out or latch onto the most negative thing possible or the last negative thing. They build onto this negativity and create a toxic environment for you and others around you. A poison that slowly erodes friendships and ruins the mental health of others.

They will rob you of positivity or any joy you feel in life, emotional vampires so to speak. They subsist of negative circumstance and feel the need to bring others down with them. Misery loves company aftrer all. The highs they experience come at the cost of drainings other positive feelings.