radiant shadows

🌙It makes sense but it's. so very fucked up that my exomemories just keep flickering vividly in our mind idly and it's just. I'll manage. But. Mmmmhgh.

yeah feel that sometimes

i rlly dont have all that much to talk about here lately

...how the hell do you handle wanting more art of a headmate who's an existing fanfiction character, anyway, other than asking partners nicely

🌲Why is there an uptick in weird route memes. stop that.

i really do feel like just sitting on the knowledge that virtually the entire reason things suck for a bunch of people right now being entirely due to a group of sickos /neg

i dunno man i feel jaded to it all at this point i guess the physical disability and mental illness helps with recognizing

Exceptionally funny that the artist we won the raffle of was just like "oh hey what's this absol's name" and I was so grateful we had decided on Eclipse because it would have been so funny to just say "Oh, this is December."

🌟now that ive basically become one with the giratina i know i just kind of still have thoughts swirling about my divinity at large and oh boy

all i know i need to do is exist and live thats all

i could not talk about this in depth without sounding insane to most so i wont

whatever happens i'm eclipse first and december holiday second

not to say its a lesser part of me, but its a part of me that i will still cherish and hold close no matter what people want to think of me for it. no matter what happens

this is a fucking story being told about lives potentially on the line and we've got people treating it like a shitty little jigsaw puzzle. like touys. maybe it's just the fact we're all used to knowing/having more fictives but god if it doesn't feel insensitive after a point.

whether or not I Personally have any autonomy as the roaring knight is yet to be seen, or whether or not I even am the knight despite all signs definitely veering in that direction

frankly this is just a personal petty tangent, people can think whatever they want, but man theory culture sucks atp

🌲Y'know. We keep flashing back to seeing how people we were around reacted to the ending of Chapter 4 and Toriel's behavior and we just still can't help but feel like there's a non-zero chance that people are going to be equally annoyin about me, if i end up having any personal bearing on my actions

🫂yeah,

today i brave through the everything to see this fic through to the end, or at least as far as i can get within a day. 3 at a time, maybe, i've got about 30ish left.

🌕Well I guess we really are kind of a full-fledged median because holy shit, the Lunala might actually be conscious.

Dude, this shit's so fucky.

ofc close friends are fine i just. yeah shit's weird

not that ive met anyone who demanded one but fuck if i could explain how i know so decidedly that december holiday ended up here so i think im just fine with. like. what i know about how we all function as is now

i don't. really want to explain to randoms how we all function anymore and thats fine

🌲I'm not ashamed or worried about where I came from or what might happen but I do hope that me deciding to branch off in my own ways into my own thing isn't just perceived as me trying to run from myself, or potential consequences, or something.

yeah this is a headspace post

🌟bonds will form and you won't really have any clue why but at least the both of them seem happy so that's really all you need at the end of the day

tessa showing up invariably reminding us we're actually pretty fuckin lucario adjacent sometimes. is it fox enough? to us? might as well be

four actually! fuckin, cherry

im justl.l im glad im pokemon but holy fuck

three different pokemon having at least a bit of yearning for their home continents sure is

and one of them can literally just fuckin go there.

🌲While id rather not have a layer of privacy so thin: idgaf at this point. I'm operating on levels of Thinking About it at times that most people will probably not be able to wrap around or just call me shit for anyway

🌲Cause I barely do!!

I guess it is just. I don't like the prospect of having vague things like this dangled in front of me, someone who genuinely cannot remember a single thing and is trying her damndest to not worry too hard about that and what things about me may get recontextualized

🌲I didn't expect to wake up from a dream that was. trying to be a personal talk between me and someone else. Interspersed with all sorts of the usual dream weirdness. But I'm kind of bitter about it. It didn't even sound like my voice. But that's the thing, who the fuck knows what I sound like

i mean i only just have tessa but yknow i still feel like. affirmed. with the path my brain settled into ig uess. i don't regret it

🌟milos from home provoked a trigger we didn't know we had and guiding light definitely has some Wild pacing in the latter half but I'll be damned if pmd fics aren't a hell of a lifeblood. that fuels me

im happy im where i am and im what i am right now
im happy those who have showed up here are here

🌙I guess I understand why Mega Lucario Z's existence was enough to realize I was here, considering. Plenty

To be more in tune and understanding of myself individually is something I'm glad I have the space to do

oh yeah i guess these are both slush