timmy ♥

getting hypnotherapy on monday and it's actually my last hope like if this shit doesn't work i dont even know what to do anymore

ive gotten so fat my fucking shoes are getting too small

fr im like its only 100cal yay and then i eat 10 servings

all low cal shit too i was like this food is allowed and then i ate so much it became high cal

free me from this fat body PLEASE GOD

a kermit the frog is sitting on a ledge with his arms outstretched ALT: a kermit the frog is sitting on a ledge with his arms outstretched

overate again today

it's actually so hateful that salads can be 500+ calories

i might try that tomorrow,, having a body double helps but i'm too embarrassed to let anyone in my room lol so maybe a video will help

ate like 1600cl today which is too much but at least i didn't binge ig

you got this ♡♡

existence is humiliating

sammeee i literally binged yesterday and it's like I've forgotten how to restrict , it'll be easier as the days go on but I havent been able to go without bingeing for more than a few weeks all year i feel like such a faliure ive gotten so huge

my issue is i need control but as soon as my control slips a little bit i just lose it all entirely.. like if i lose control for 1 second and overeat a little bit ill end up bingeing for a week

same i cant escape

yeah i ended up washing just my hair and using baby wipes , it's so embarrassing to be struggling with basic hygiene

I feel so goddamn empty. no matter who i talk to, what i buy, what i do, what i do or dont eat i still feel empty.

someone motivate me to clean my room .. somehow it being a disgusting pigsty is not enough motivation

no motivation to shower im so greasy and fat and disgusting

she was mad at ppl faking EDs and i just asked if thats something that actually happens or if its the same as disabled ppl getting bullied for "faking" bc theyre not a stereotype
got hit w the "its not that deep" and a block

bambi blocked me damn

birthday coming up cant wait to be older and still fat and ugly

i wish i was fucking dead so bad

i want to vomit looking at myself

crunch is such a weakness for me too i need to get back on my celery game

hate when ppl are like "imagine ur child self seeing who you are now they'd be so proud" my child self would be like ugh what even is that i wanted to be cool and pretty

2023 me would actually fucking hate current me so much

yeah the slimfit ones expand in ur stomach too, im such a fatass tho ill binge even when stuffed full

still havent removed my bandages sepsis here i come