Chezalbi

So I don't know, I've been thinking that maybe it's time to stop drawing because I'm struggling with the economic aspect too but there's literally nothing else I can do, this has been my only source of income and work experience for a while... I'm trapped and terrified

I'm always talking about how my art is about the joy in everyday life but it's getting more and more difficult to find that joy and feels like I'm lying lol And plus it's so overwhelming when I'm looking for references and everything is IA, makes me cry everytime and I'm not even joking

I'm so very not okay and haven't been for a while, and it's getting worse and worse. A mixture of things I guess but most of all I miss one of my favorite persons in the world and it hurts. I'm lost and exhausted and everything takes the world for me to do, and I really don't know how to fix it.

So hmm I need to vent but so many people follow me on insta (including my whole family haha) so I hope it's fine if I do it here.

character playing a guitar in a bed

🎵 Moon Song - Phoebe Bridgers

illustration of a character taking a bath in a pink bathroom

warm bath 🫧✨🧴a lot of staring at the ceiling lately…

text: and as the days go by, I can't help but wonder, did you also delete my pictures? did you throw away my letters, my gifts, my trinkets?

text: and after all of that, will it be just as easy to erase me from your memory?

text: but of course I have no way of knowing. So I just remain still, slowly fading as you turn me into a ghost.

(part 2/2)

text: I think that I am turning into a ghost.

text: the last time that we talked, you blocked me everywhere.

text: now every time that I want to see your face, I am confronted with a faceless figure instead.

text: you also deleted our text history, so it's starting to feel as if I made you up inside my head.

I think that I am turning into a ghost...

(part 1/2)

Clara's previous character versions from my game Phantomemoir! She is the quirky one, and she also believes in aliens and ghosts and stuff. 👽

Sofi's previous character versions from my game Phantomemoir!

those let's see, uums and uhh are mine!! hihihi

reminder!! this ends the 20th :>

Illustration of a character hugging a big crocodile plush, a tiny tear in her eye

Crocodile tears (run the tap 'til it's clear) ✨

Close up of a crocheted Pawmi's face. He's made using super fluffy yarn and is holding a bocadillo

Full body picture of the Pawmi

Side picture of Pawmi, showing their fluffy tail

Throwback to when I made the fluffiest Pawmi ever!!

#art #plushmaker #artist #cuteart #amigurumi #pokemon #pawmi

character design sheet of my character Brie

Here's another OC 🧡 Meet Brie!

Guys I misnamed my own OC... 😭 This is SOFT!! I'll introduce you to Brie in the next post. Anyway thanks for so many kind comments and interactions!!

character design sheet of my character Soft! She likes plants, P.E and anime.

Hello Bluesky! 💙

Here's one of my OCs, Brie! You'll see her occasionally in my illustrations

Illustration of a character wearing a sweater, eyes closed, surrounded by branches and autumn leaves

The story of the girl who grew up so much her head was so high above the ground, away from the noise, and from everything and everyone 🍂

Hi there! I want to get used to using this platform more 🧡 Thank you so much for your follows!

lil lop eared bunny witch helping me stay awake while I got a lot of art to make today 😴
#art #procreate #digitalart

a drawing of my character, Soft. She's wearing a white dress and is laying on her side, curled up, forget-me-nots sprinkled around her.

I hate you for what you did,
and I miss you like a little kid

An illustration featuring a playground with some kids agrupated in the slide; two of them are playing with game boy advances and the rest are looking, cheering and laughing.

The playground 🛝🌱

Finally my first post here! Hello everyone! 🧡