Hazel ⚫🦅Edelgard's Babygirl

you don't like priam because of shipping discourse reasons

i don't like priam because if he's canon then so is every awakening spotpass character, and they all suck from a narrative standpoint.

we are not the same.

omg it's monigard angst

if you try hard enough yes

cyberpunk 2077 except it's monica von ochs and keanu reeves is stuck in a lesbian's braim

(nothing changes)

yeah y'know what after the trainwreck that was the last stream

i can't be assed with this game anymore

Lamplady Swansong 🩵💉🪽 #vriska #homestuck

i had to carry 2 beds down 2 floors and i only wanted to explode like 4 times so i'd say that's a success

yeah it sucks that most artists haven't made the jump here but i'd rather prioritize my well being too

Lamplady Swansong #Homestuck

so yeah i decided to finally move on from twitter.
tl;dr, place has just gotten way too toxic, need to just cut off the doomscrolling and stuff
quick update of everything, been taking care of my sick mom for the last month, she started chemo this week so hopefully things get better

is this thing on

i don't want to get too gloomy or talk about potentially triggering stuff but

i don't know, i'm just afraid and concerned of what's gonna be of me

life update

semester almost over, probably did very poorly all things considered, mental state honestly not a lot bettet, no luck finding a job yet

i just want to rest, but i can't shut my intrusive thoughts away

another rejection

sorry for venting in public but

tl;dr job search is still unsuccesful, classes just not getting better, i just feel like i'm getting worse by the minute

probably my worst relapse in years

i know i need help but

i can't afford it

only other job offer i got was for "chatter" that i sent an application to thinking it was customer support or something

turns out it was replying to onlyfans dms

yeah uhhhh talking to lonely men for money is not exactly something i wanna do i'm not THAT desperate yet

whenever i feel i'm getting better i get dragged back down

i'm still here, just trying to get up again. taking until the semester ends to resume my job hunting, because i just can't really function in this state

ye that's why i'm either ghosting the interview on monday or just not taking it

only job offer i got so far involves months of unpaid training for a 4 dollars an hour salary

help

why can't anyone help me

rejection mails finally started rolling in

i feel like a prisoner in my own body

anyone knows how long it takes to learn how to repair computers?

hazel introduction carrd

hi

-hazel
-28
-avemuji has rotted my brain
just tired in general

hazelwonderland.carrd.co

got all my cases transfered so don't need to come in during the mornings anymore, just for afternoon lectures

a small victory, but still concerned about everything else. just hoping i at least do well in my examinations.

i'm in one of those moods where i just don't feel like doing anything but bedrot and wait until i have to go back to the torture chamber

i'm actually so fucking tired. i just want to get out of here.

it's the latter

it's all uphill from here

spending this week off just rotting in bed watching old anime, thinking about how i really should just drop out and find another job already because i just feel so miserable every day at the hospital