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Idk why Im rambling on about this, but it is important to me.

I dont want to lose sight of that. Even though it can be easy to do.

Its important to aspire and dream throughout your entire life. Or you lose thar sense of wonder and purpose, I feel.

And you can follow that at any age.

I want to learn from her experience and keep going with my own dreams.

Even though I often forget them and get side-tracked.

I want to make art, I want to write. I want to create things WITH people. With the ones I love.

To have something in my old age to look back on and smile.

Makes me sad to see one of her dreams just....dashed. Be it due to life happening and just giving up.

She has had so many ideas and dreams in her life she let go....

Like how she wanted go start and sewing and mending business too, for example.

I talked to her about it over a year ago, she always told me a story of an illustrator she met while on jury duty who did art for childrens books who drew her little groundhog character from her story idea.

Sad thing is, she never got past the idea.
She really has no want to write it either now.

Regarding my mother,

I remember mentioning 800 years ago her wanting to make a childrens book in her 40s and wanting to help her with that

She had aspirations of being a writer, but gave up on them. :(

I remember....

For a time when I was a wee little lass, one of my favorite things to do before going to bed was to make up stories with my mother.

They weren't very good and completely nonsensical, make me smile to remember. C:

I really want to pull stories out my arse like that with friends.

Oh this is positutely darlin'! :O

It's been fun seeing your next model come together, keep going! C:

Still missing most of the body physics and all of the toggles BUT IT'S TECHNICALLY USEABLE FOR STREAM NOW ACTUALLY--

I remember a plot device for like half a year on one of those being about erectile dysfunction for the oldest character in the soap.

And that was the funniest shite I ever did see.

Also, why are kids in prime time soap operas whole personalities on-screen just shipping their divorced parents?

Ive seen this like 2 times in 2 months.

Its a soap so the writing is already bottom of the moldy barrel, but omg.

So centering things around creativity, yapping, and as an elaborate excuse to hang out with and getting to know other streamers / creators seems to be the way to go.

I have the most fun doing that....

Man,

I really need to think of things I'd like to do for streams.

I love streaming, but not really gaming on stream. Any time I do it does not feel very fulfilling to me...I also never finish a playthrough. 😭

I think my fave things to do is art and vtuber rigging, reading books, and collabs.

The agreement my hubs and I have for when I kick the bucket. #taxidermy #vtuberclips #vtuber #vtuberuprising #couplesgoals

Best vibe check Ive ever heard of, tbh!

What a cutie baby!! 💗💗

WHY DO YOU GUYS DO THIS?? LMAO!!

I still don't get it but hey....guys, I guess??

I KEEP HEARING THIS??
Like...I haven't witnessed it before. 😭
It's so interesting and I'm sad I'm missing out on observing this moment in the wild, tbh.

I think it might bet a cultural(??) thing. I'm not a man so I can't tell you really. xD

I have seen it happen in sports (Football especially.), but apparently it is a thing. 🤔
Just depends on the friendship....I guess??

Men are certainly odd creatures. 🤨

I have not witnessed that much in my life, so that's interesting to think about.

That's what I said!

They do like to just do a little friendly pat-pat on the gluteus maximus.
So I don't think it's that far of a stretch the non-professionals smackers do it too. 🤔

Dear Diary,

Today I learned guys really like to spank each other. And like...not in a weird way. Just a really friendly way.

....Male bonding, I guess?
What fascinating creatures that exist on this planet.

I completely understand, tbh! :,D
I've only had it open for like 15 minutes and I can tell you it is QUALITEA! 👌👌
The rigging and art are lovely.

Also very user friendly with how everything is sorted out.
I'll look forward to sharing!!

Always been a fan of their work too.
They did an amazing job with Ironmouse and Shylily's OG model.

I caved and bought the new 2wintails customizable model. 😭😭

Mercy.
IT IS SUPER HIGH QUALITY THOUGH LIKE OMG.

I feel like....

Later than sooner, I need to do a professional cover of Copacabana. Like get a mix and commission someone for art for a video

Its been haunting my brain all January. 😭
Its like the spirit of the song is clawing at my brain to do thatz RAAAAAGH!!

One of my dream (With a lot of over-the-top effort) collab streams is to make a bunch of goofy AH puppet models, make a custom puppet theatre, and then have a bunch of friends to put on a puppet show with.

But like....make it vtubers.

I was two-days-ago years old that I realized I desperately needed an actual simple skincare routine instead of just soap to my face.

My skin is no longer as dry and flaky as an English scone. 😭😭

I think its very much the variety
and texture of the diffrlerent objects.

It stimulates my monkey brain and helps to focus myself.
Im surprised at how it has helped to regulate stress.

I think Im slowly becoming addicted to fidget toys. Omg.

I have a small wood 'rock' I carry with me made out of tharja wood.

I own a copper coin, a ceramic thumb toast, a beanie pocket alien, and now I'm getting a soft minky fabric fidget thats lavender scented.

All are in rotation. 🥲

I made new peepers for myself.

:^D