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I....had another gall attack again last night so bad that I ended up uncontrollably sobbing for 20 minutes.

Little to no sleep.
I just want this misery to end.
I want someone to help me.
Im so tired.

Im both terrified and nervous seeing this surgeon tomorrow.
Ill bet my bottom dollar Ill cry too.

Im so worried they won't get me in for surgery till way late.

Its been excruciating just waiting for this consult. 😭

I imagine kidney stones are just as terrible, tbh. 🥲

Im definitely as a curse on someone I truly, utterly hate amd going to wish for their gallbladder to make rocks.

Thank you though Obosleet, I truly do appreciate it!

Thank you Mystery. That means a lot!! 😭😭 💗💗
Im doing my best to keep my head above water.

I keep filling up my Throne with books, media, and items Id like to watch / read / do when I get better.

Idk why, probably the pain meds, but I keep tearing up thinking all the things I cant watch, read, and do right now due to me being so sick and all I want to do but can't.

HUH!!
Well the more you know! :D

That's both cool and a little macabre.

.....Have people ever made jewelry out of their gallstones?

That's a funky thought.

HEY YOU!

I just wanna say thanks for putting up with me live-posting about my pain and stress with this gallbladder ordeal.

Your support and empathy is really helping me get through this.

Thank you, I appreciate you. 💗

Being in a state of confused delirium is absolutely terrifying.
Feeling like you are not in control of yourself.

I took accidently took too many strong painkillers before sleep for fear of another gall attack.

I think I may have preferred the gall attack tbh.

I sadly have a feeling that no matter how ok I feel and all the pain meds I take....

I am still going to have this ache in my right side, back, and heaviness in my chest until I get this gallbladder removed.

2 more days till the consult....ugh.

I am taking way better care of my body after this.

Shes my home and Ive neglected her by feeding her junk and being sedentary.

This week has been hell in a hand basket. 🥲

I cant wait to not constantly be talking about the pain I am in.
I so wanna be normal again.

This may be a bit TMI

But I just had a major BM for the first time in 5 days right at the time I started having major gall attacks.

I instantly dropped down a couple pounds weighing myself after and I feel almost normal minus the soreness in my body.

I cried in relief. Still am a little bit.

Me....please....😭😭

Been to the ER 3 times now, not to mention the parade of doctors visits that have come and will continue to come.

2 surgeries too, most likely.
Just...sigh.

Ok...

I need to cool it on reading about gallbladder, surgery costs, and medical bills / debt for Healthcare.

Otherwise I am going to go into a panic and that is not needed right now.

Thank you Sucre! 🥹💗

I definitely would like to ask some questions and vent cause wowee it is an ordeal. Im just glad to know Im also not alone in this experience too and there is am after to all this

Its very demoralizing.

Ok, so--

Im reading books to distract from Gallbladder pain on the daily.

Does anybody out there know any novels that give a similar vibe to The Last Last Unicorn??

Cause I love the tone and writing of this book so much.

Wish that were me rn ngl.

Thank you Cinder, I appreciate the well wishes. 🙏🥹
And the hugs too, those are always nice, lol!

Yah, I wish this on no one.

Ive also been losing quite a bit of weight eating bland as is for a month but even more so due to eating even blander and smaller portions now to not piss off the devil organ, I was wanting to anyway, but not like this....☹️

BUT YES, PLEASE KEEP THEM VIBES A-GOING!!

Please, just stick a spoon in there and scoop it put.

Its really angry. 😭

YES PLEASE, AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!
TWINNING!

Slowly been getting worse over the week and I want to convince that surgeon to get me in soon cause it is such misery.

Yeeeep, actually confirmed after an ultrasound in the ER Wednesday and Im desparate to get it out. Cause Ive been feeling like bootycheeks.

I have "Small cholelithiasis and
sludge within the gallbladder." according to the ultrasound report.

Im so worried they will book a date far in the future for the procedure.

I just want to not actively hurt anymore.
Get some of my agency back.
Not be crying in pain at lest every other day.

I am so ready to have someone scoop this little demon organ out of me and I dont even have a surgery date let alone a consult with the surgeon yet till Tuesday. 😭

Each day has felt like a million years.
I can't do much other than keep the pain meds coming.

Dumb gallbladder keeps actively hurting.

Idk why....

But my father calling me memorable made me feel very happy. C':

I am in so much pain, I wanna cry.

Thats a relief to hear. C':
Very reassuring too, I dont think I have much fear of getting a surgery tbh just moreso the wait of a consult, the schedulendate, and a potential scare of something more urgent in that time.

Thank you so much though Sucre, I appreciate it. 💗