Rae

We’re officially the parents who gross their kids out because we like each other. Last night our 12 y/o saw us kissing in the kitchen and said “ew. Don’t you guys have a bedroom? 🙄”

My 12 year old is having his first friend sleepover tonight and it’s wild how nervous I am to watch their friendship develop. I just don’t want him to ever experience the hurt I did.

A series of Polaroid framed photos to celebrate my birthday. The top right photo is of a tiramisu with stars on top. The top left photo is a birthday candle in a mirror with the number 34 written in lipstick on the mirror. The bottom left photo is a photo of my whimsically decorated dining room. The bottom right photo is a photo of me (a redheaded woman with glasses) smiling into her birthday candle as she makes a wish.

New Moon Birthday vibes

GOTHIC HORROR FOR HORNY MOMS in the style of Zohran Mamdani's mayoral campaign logo

I have therapy today to talk about how to handle the holidays and my birthday and tbh I am scared

We have entered the part of the year when all my past trauma bubbles up to the surface to remind me that I am still that scared little girl just begging to be loved.

My only precognitive dreams are about pregnancy and death, this somehow makes sense to me.

Sometimes after receiving rejection letters I get discouraged.
But I was just searching through my work for one poem in particular, and I am a really fucking good poet.
Eventually the work will find its home and the world will see that.

All day, every day now.

Or we can let the spouses pick and end up watching RHPS or a Scooby Doo movie lol

I have barely seen anyone other than my aunt, my kids, and my spouse since breaking my ankle in August. So that means I’m extra excited to host horror movie night in a couple of weeks.
@chasecampbell.bsky.social and I just have to decide on something to watch…

I’m always terrified that I’m going to ✨annoy✨ people by reposting myself, even though I’m totally not bothered when other people do it???

Another day, another family death

After the mishap with that little mag last month and my 6 weeks of isolation while recovering, my work as a poet has definitely taken a hit.
I had no inspiration for so long and my confidence in myself and my work plummeted.
I hope I can spend the last few months of the year getting back to it.

Oh I *love* Tragedy Girls!!!!!

This year has been incredibly hard and especially isolating for me, and that’s okay.

Moving up to about 4 hours a day with my boot off plus yoga and PT.
Healing from this injury has been exhausting and shaken the very foundation of my belief in myself

It's banned book week and we sincerely hope you're reading something that makes conservative people sneer. The bar is low, but that doesn't mean we can't be proud of clearing it!

Let us know what book you're devouring this week, and never let anyone tell you what you can and can't read.

As we move through fall I find myself thinking about my ex best friend more and more. I’ e considered reaching out but I know she doesn’t that, so all I can do is think of her often. I hope she’s healed and stayed in therapy. I hope she has been loved and supported well.

not my fault i'm adorable and filled with rage. i contain multitudes and mental illness.

I pushed myself too hard today and now I am very sore. I keep forgetting that I am not back at my full capacity yet.

I had to switch therapy days because of PT, and we’ve really been focusing on my high functioning codependency lately 🤡
Anyway my homework for this week is to read Too Much by Terri Cole, which has been on my TBR for like a year already.

“Hey mom! Wanna see collection of dead stuff?!”
Things my 9 year old says 💀

The divinity of being loved by a poet

Reading your own work like

"I wrote that?" 🤩
and also
"I wrote that?" 🤢

A list of reasons to make art:
-horny
-spite
-for the bit
-if you don't who will

My spouse and best friend took me to see the Ukrainian Ballet do Sleeping Beauty last year and it was phenomenal!!!!
I highly recommend seeing a ballet at least once 💚

The intimacy of letting someone witness your grief never goes away

Today feels heavy- and the one person would have talked to about this heaviness is no longer in my life.

My physical therapist told me that my surgery scars are “very soft”
?????