Alice

Today Ive felt the most stable both mentally and emotionally than I have in the last 5yrs. Still very much more reserved than I have been, still not sociable. But I feel like I can finally grow. Sure I'll still have many bad mental health days. But it's a start of progress. Finally.

A doodle in a sketchbook of a cute, stylized, tiny black crow wearing a huge purple witch hat. A few stars and trinkets hang from the her on strings. There is a coral-colored circle behind them with doodles of stars in it. The illustration uses a limited palette and has some texture to it.

Big hat 💜

[ #cuteart #traditionalart #sketchbook ]

I never played Hades. Started playing Hades II on Thursday, and I'm obsessed. Not my usual type of game... but the art! The music! The story!! Plus, I love mythology

Finally, I am able to watch the Nintendo direct, live.

I cannot wait to get my own space. I just want to cook. I want to make my comfort foods again.

Potatoes, rice, bread, pasta and oils are not allowed at my parents house. Nothing with starch, sugar, or carbohydrates.

I rescued a juvenile raccoon from my store's dumpster. They were so small and alone at the bottom of the dumpster. Lid was down, and it was nearly 80°. I have no idea how long they were stuck. Used a broom handle to lift them up and out safely. They were so cute! No hissing! Wish I took a picture

I dunno if it's just my aversion to humans in general rn- but every single human on any given dating app is just so unappealing bro. At least to me

Had dental cleaning today. I have to get two crowns replaced (they are over 9yrs old) in Sept. Got Jury Duty summons from a county I moved out of over a year ago. Shout out to my JC landlord for texting me about it today. Oh and my steering wheel started shaking while pressing on gas. Great.

Debt paid off. I treated myself. It's bittersweet to be honest. It's time to shelf you, Animal Crossing Switch. Thank you for the wonderful time and memories.

I have been doing research and debating it for a while. Since it was released, honestly. I think I'll take the jump! This will be my first big purchase since I became debt free, which was not a necessity

I got the Invitation to purchase a Switch2; the link is valid until 5PM, Friday.

Should I? Is it worth it?

Giving

Went to the he Botanical Garden today. Found a fountain that had 4 frogs lounging. The biggest surprise - the water was full of tadpoles!! I felt like Mei in My Neighbor Totoro.

Judson Memorial Church (New York), instructing us that “if empathy is a sin, sin boldly.”

Ever since I had a PSP, Ive loved Patapon. It just came out in the eShop on Switch, and I decided to treat myself and get it.

Internet is garbage in West Milford. Gunna have to wait an hour for this to finish downloading.

Had a date yesterday. They seemed nice. Just got coffee and talked for a while

All I can do is focus on one day at a time to reach my goal. Sometimes, I'm just focusing on getting through the next hour.

But for my friends, I'm always cheering you on. I'm celebrating your victories. Proud of you all. May you all continue to be the wonderful souls I know you are.

The urge to scream out my window to tell my neighbors, "Fucking grow up; enough of the fireworks! I'm trying to go to sleep!"

I lurk more and post less. I just don't have it in me. I feel like an empty shell

How the hell are people going about their daily lives with all this shit happening? Literally spiraling with everything going on.

I played a video I had of Mist singing... Maple came right up to my Surface, looking all around for him. It actually made me tear up.

I thought I would treat myself and splurge on getting the Switch2. However I think I'll hold off for now. Lot of cons for me. Especially the battery life. The processor does appeal to me tho.

I still find myself hung up on the past. On what will never be again. I cherish the good memories I've made, even when it makes me wallow in self pity.

I look forward to the day I can start redefining what it is to be me. To live independently. Find my spark and dream new dreams.

Called it.

Tried leaving work and my brakes stopped working. Looks like something ruptured and fluid was flooding out. Guess it was a brake line. Undercarriage so rusted, the whole thing is about to shatter.

Got to a repair shop using E-brake. Guy said it'll be a few days.

Off work W+THR.

Got bumped up to $20/hr. Minor setback with Maples vet bill on my one credit card.
Might hit a bump in the next week or two when I'm forced to take my car in for maintenance (she's literally falling apart).

Slowly but surely, I'm making progress. Still dying on the inside, but Im getting there.

Lmao maybe I should just get a van and live in that with Maple. Ffs

Turning 35 tomorrow. It's going to be raining all day. I have to drop Maple off for xrays in the AM.

Running theme of shitty birthdays.

I turn 35 next week.

This past year and a half had me at the end of my rope. At least now I can say I have a better grip with some purchase, as opposed to nearly having it slide out of my grip.

First birthday without Mist or Merlin. Three days later, it will be a year since I've seen Merlin.

My mom bought a bed for Maple a few days ago. Even though Maple dislikes her, my mom still tries to get her to like her.

Maple finally gave the bed a chance.

She's just a (6yr old) baby