Natasha

I promised someone I would mail a copy of the zine I wrote about my reviews of different Marijuana strains. Which means I need to finish it. Weed Read! Also going to drop it off at my local dispensary with my resume.

Found an Itty bitty bud. Eating a bagel and feeling better. I can't control how the day goes but I can do my best to keep my mood up. No retail therapy though.

Folding my little zines feels like a waste of time when it doesn't help pay my bills. How can I enjoy creating art when I should be spending my time job hunting?

I would pay someone to fill out all these job applications.
I like repeative tasks. Counting inventory at a dispensary would be perfect.
More coffee.

I have a 3d printer. The power of plastic is in my control. I'm making tiny bats.

I'm going to start a small business. I have no idea what I'm doing. Selling publications on Etsy. Paperwork? Taxes? Eeeeee

Girls don't like boys - girls like cats and money.

I figure out the best costume a week before Halloween. Dammit! Oh well, next year. I will acquire a pirate hat that fits my big head.

I feel like I have wandered off and forgot that I left my body laying in bed. I'm not even being productive, just depressed and lazy. It's okay, me, I'll stay right here while you go off and cry. This happens every October. Whee. Only not, because I contain no enthusiasm.

YouTube video by Matt Henegar Art Feeling Like Your Art Doesn’t Matter? Watch This.

Such a good video to remember that creativity has a place in this world.
youtu.be/XYWcmWjpCEk?...

Exhausted all yesterday and slept for five hours. Now I'm wide awake. Got therapy today. Tonight I must sew. Must. Sew. Time is ticking.

Picked up books at the thrift store while out with my bestie. You can tell the direction my interests has been traveling. I'm currently reading Dying for an IPhone. It's really good. I want to write a review of it for my fashion zine - coming January 2026!

I want candy pink fangs.

I need to replace my windshield because someone decided to smash it. Thank goodness I'm crafty because it's my birthday month and I will make myself a Halloween outfit with what I already have. Maybe even a birthday outfit. Sew my sadness away.

I want to be a book worm like I was when I was younger. I devoured books. I push myself to read but it takes a lot of mental concentration to stay focused. A side effect of too much Tiktok? That's full of info too. Gimme all the knowledge. Fill up my brain with interesting facts. I need coffee.

I want what doesn't exist so I must create it myself. I'm hoping it will be ready to be consumed in January. Book review. Movie review. Fashion photoshoot. Art. All me. But it will be made.

The dress is yet to be finished and I have no excuse except for procrastination. I'll caffinate the hell out of myself and finish it tonight.

How did Sunday go? After three hours of waiting in line, I was told they were running out of time and equipment. The next vaccination drive is in November. I can go to the vet for shots but it cost hundreds.

I don't care if you're my friend. If you message me on Fartlife (not the actually name but you can figure it out) and your profile Pic is your disgusting man meat, I will block you. That's the last part of you I wish to see and you gave me no choice. Ew. Eeeeew.

Don't buy the fabric don't buy the fabric don't buy the fabric. You have enough! Stop it!
But... But... So cute...

@natashanacre.bsky.social is a first-time DM tonight! Wheeee! #D&D #RPG #dungeonsanddragons

'If you have time to volunteer, you have time to work.' I can already hear my friends retort. I'll cut down on socializing so I have time to care for animals. It's worth it to me.

Getting my kitties vaccinated this weekend and hopefully getting information on how I can volunteer with animals again. I want to help the critters so bad.

Sew sew sew. At the rate I'm going, I should be finished with this dress by the end of the week. One outfit down for the zine shoot. It's progress.

You may notice a theme in what I picked up at the Small Press Expo..

I was telling a friend about the Small Press Expo and she interrupts - 'are you writing a book? I know you make zines.' I'm not not interested in writing and publishing.. Now it's a thought ruminating in my brain. I think so? At least bigger zines.

It's time to graduate from the minizine to a full-size pamphlet. The first four of the series, the unreleased fifth, and a few pages of exclusive art. Include a sticker that I already have hundreds of. Yeah. I love this idea. Also, really want to reread Johnny the Homicidal Maniac. #NoBuySeptember

YouTube video by Kamikaze_Shortbus I Tried to Follow My Passion For Art but Now I'm 32 and Unemployed

I got a message today saying I inspired them to make art. Damn. My frozen heart thawed a little.

The problem - one of many - with mental illness is when you have a good idea, you have to second guess yourself. This is a great idea! Wait, is it? Or is it a waste of time? I want to write a zine celebrating cats and have all the profits go towards a rescue I can personally vouch for. Naaah....

Going to a dungeon is difficult for me. I love the atmosphere but my interests get misconstrued. My cat ears don't mean I'm into kittenplay - I just think they're cute. My stuffed animals don't mean I'm a little - I like my emotional support toys. Just a fact.