Mistah J

This whole healing shit makes me want to apologize to some people but idk if it's worth it.

Decided to read over my journal entries from last year.
The amount that I sat there, just wrecked. Trying to understand my own place in the world. It's such a difference from what I am mentally today.

Horror fam, what should I watch tomorrow night to bring in the new year!? Gimme something good!

All that being fucking said. I have never been to the West coast. So I booked a trip to Vegas next week. I am going to do everything this year.

I will remember to rest and I will remember to slow down and breathe and take in the beauty and magic around me.

So for 2026, I cleared the air. I saged my home, I performed cleansing rituals. I am protecting my peace of mind and I am setting boundaries. And I am not letting anyone interfere with that anymore. I will be more. I will call out false people. I will hold space for others when needed and myself

For 2026, there are so many things I want to do. Be more spiritual, travel, be a better man, help out my community even more, be more in touch with nature, compete in archery and HEMA, I want to make more friends. I want to do everything I've dreamed of.

Good bye 2025
U weren't kind. U weren't easy. But u were necessary. U brought endings I didn't ask for. Truth I couldn't ignore illusions that finally fell apart. U showed me what no longer belonged in my life. U closed karmic chapters. U cleared space, even when it hurt. For that I am thankful.

This kid in the turtle costume. I can't LMAO

As a kid, my grandmother used to take me every year to see the tree at Rockerfeller. I haven't been since Jan 2022. Last time I was here, I was with Jade. It felt good to be back here with her. It meant a lot to me. Thanks baby, I appreciate you wanting to keep traditions that are important to me.

This fucking week has been KILLING me. I don't wanna people.

I would like a cigar and a glass of Jameson please.

Dude. I've been in a funk for days now. I need to break out of this feeling.

WHAT THE FUCK.

Say what you want about me but I keep it 💯
You will NEVER catch me talking shit about someone then trying to be their friend.
I don't do fake.
I don't do two faced shit.

My plan tomorrow is to celebrate my culture.
I'm making a pernil and some coquito
And blasting Dead Pioneers while I do it.

Best advice:

Don't light a match when you live in a tinderbox.

Some of y'all need to ask this question to yourselves:
If EVERY relationship you've ever been in, platonic or romantic, ends in drama.
What's the common denominator here?
Is EVERYONE else drama filled or is it me?

Stay sucker free my friends.
Protect your peace from parasites.
They love drama.

You ever wish someone would just stfu and take their own advice?

Yeah lol

NGL. Coming and sitting on the couch with Jade and Miles, eating popcorn and watching the Devils game feels so good to my soul

FUCK.
I wanna eat this banana bread but I have to thaw it for 3-4 hours BEFORE I bake the bitch.
Ugh.

This is a project for another night.

Sunday, I got hit in the face with a sword. Lol
I ended that day by going to 4 different bars across 2 states.

a cartoon of a chef with a needle in his mouth is playing at 4:32 ALT: a cartoon of a chef with a needle in his mouth is playing at 4:32

Dude. Welcome to Derry.

Lmfao I have an opportunity to meet Brendan Fraser.

I know who would have LOVED that lmao

I genuinely love when a fake ass transplant who can't even stand the city, the sounds and actively talked shit about it tells other people about this city.

Like do me a favor just point in the direction of idk...St. marks.

Something lol

From the Nevermore Goth rave last night.

Happy Halloween

Just accidentally bought tickets to see Foxy Shazam.

Not mad though lol

Fucking Devils. Don't lose again tonight. Thank you.