Kenny 🥩 mentally unwell, 60% OFF comms + shop open

our interest for brad and eddie got me out but it was a fleeting moment...

albeit the crashout i had earlier, i managed to watch tiktoks and rocky horror with friends

will my isolation continue after? most likely

1 more til 400 total comms finished this year

everyone in that house, mainly brother

happy birthday cassius my beloved (next week but still)

i put so much trauma and torture onto you that its switched back to me, you're my exact gender goals so i've stolen your look for myself and now i hate every fibre of my being

i know i'm replaceable, it's been proven a lot

i wish i could change to be a person people actually want to be around, not some damn walking and talking husk

i've never loved myself and i don't expect others to either

i've gone most of my life alone, it'd probably kill me if i was alone again but i'm used to it

i won't seek it out but i expect it to happen at any point

i kinda wish people would forget about me so i can forget about myself and shut everything out

if nobody's close to me anymore i won't feel like a last option, i won't feel like an imposter or unwanted in my own space

like it started as just isolation, i'm fucking used to that shit that shit goes away in a few days

but feeling a hard hitting episode of dysmorphia too is killing me, i want to claw at my skin until i look better

i'm taking care of my grandfather's house all by myself, i'm alone here. it scares me but at the same time i don't care

thankfully i'm too much of a coward to do anything to myself but the thoughts have been there constantly, so all i do is draw it instead

i'm self-destructive but not that much

i try not to talk about this stuff, i'm a very quiet person and don't want to bother anyone with my problems

but this episode has been really bad and i feel like i'm going to burst or lash out at someone or myself

i havent even taken medication in a few years, and my anxiety is preventing me from figuring that shit out again

im so tired of pills im so tired of blood tests, can i just live

doordash cuts into my savings so much but i have no choice

im stuck in an endless goddamn fucking cycle cuz my family cant consider my well-being, im stuck eating unhealthy ONTOP of hypothyroidism

just fucking put me down, its not worth it

its not like im trying to starve myself, i fucking hate it

but i never have an appetite outside cravings or when i get the shakes

even then i think a lot forget i don't have easy access to food, im forced to get fast food cuz its the only thing i can eat that wont get stolen immediately

i'd understand if people would prefer i'm more mentally sound before working with me

just if you're fine with it, i'd appreciate it

working on comms rn on stream idk for how long

but ignoring my spiraling, i haven't had much luck with the sale or shop re-opening so far
i have a lot on my plate right now and my mental state isn't helping with it

but it'd be appreciated if some small work could come in (ychs, emotes)

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#oc #ocsky #art #illustration

🗑️ #oc #ocsky #art #illustration

sitting on the edge of a highway bridge, staring down at the road below, legs dangling hands holding onto the bars

You would think me practically starving every day and being on a water diet would help but haha nope

I'm not losing anything

I hate my body
I hate everything about it

I wanna lose weight to try to naturally reduce chest size and be able to wear things that are me but I have so many health conditions and food is so scarce it's in the way

I don't think I'll ever get there

grunge shag hairstyle

Just wanna be like this

My desired hairstyle requires things I can't go near... this sucks

transmasc trash heap ref sheet

Trash Pile

#oc #ocsky #art #characterdesign

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#oc #ocsky #art #illustration

icon but bigger commission of jun0exe's halloween vtuber

yandere icon ych of belphiblu's habit kinsona

comms for friends done

@jun0exe.bsky.social @belphiblu.bsky.social

#art #artcommission #vgen #vtuber #vsky

doodle sketch of trash pile with his intestines spilling out, he's laying dead in a field of grass as his spirit stands beside him and looks down in spectation

wasted husk 🗑️

#wip #oc #ocsky

sorry if any of the recent art/sona bothers you
there will be more of it

im going through it 👍