Aruki

Sometimes I feel like I'm struggling to keep my head above water, but more often it feels like I'm drowning.

I'm very tired of being tired 🫠

Sometimes you’ve got to do it scared

A downy woodpecker sits on a spruce on a sunny winter day. "Ahh... Febuary" it says. Close up on it correcting "Febrary" then "Febberary..." then finally "Frebrury"

Ferbruary #oldknees

I'm sorry for your loss. 💙💙💙

digital illustration of a supermarket interior in a snacks section, two anthro furry cats characters are shopping together. digital art from Vulkiri. OCs from Vulkiri #art #furryart

fish chips !! ✨

Sure, but can we also have one for people who woke up at 11am and need to scramble to find people to get breakfast with before the restaurants stop serving it at 12?

I regret learning how to recognize obvious AI writing, because now it's driving me absolutely insane how frequently I see it absolutely everywhere 🫠

Survivor 49 ain't it so far. It is not fun to keep watching one tribe get beat down like this season after season. I don't understand why they're sticking with this format.

Hopefully this season is starting blah and gets better later. I'd take that over 48, which started strong and fizzled out.

What are you waiting for? Let’s get in the lake!
📷 @aruki.bsky.social
#furry #fursuit #furryfandom

It's been a long road, and I still have more bad days ahead of me as I try to figure out how to consistently get through my day without consuming yeast. But I feel like I'm *finally* starting to figure out how to get in the driver's seat after decades of feeling powerless, and thank FUCK for that. 😵‍💫

I felt awful during my entire time at LSFC a couple weeks ago. I'd had animal-free whey with my breakfast. Turns out that's a yeast product. 🫠

This week I had a couple awful days. I had decided to try my coffee with monk fruit sweetener with erithrytol. Turns out erithrytol is a yeast product. 🫠🫠🫠

Off the top of my head, I cannot have:
- Leavened baked goods.
- Fermented food and drink like beer, kombucha, kimchi.
- Anything containing malt.
- Vinegar, or anything made with vinegar, like salad dressings or condiments.
- Many vegan versions of animal products.
- "Natural flavors".

I've been working very, very hard these last few months pushing for real answers as to why I'm chronically ill.

Turns out my body really, really, REALLY fucking hates yeast. Which I've been eating every day for decades. Woof.

I'm happy to know now, but dude, actually AVOIDING yeast is a NIGHTMARE.

Hope everyone is ready for more bandana patterns! Going to be making some matching collar bandanas, bow ties, and straight ties. :D drip bandana material will be purchased next week.

Fitting In and Belonging are VERY different things.

You can mold your personality to blend in, and in doing so, you Fit In. But you still don't feel you Belong.

I've learned to be okay with standing out and being different. I don't Fit In anymore. Yet I'm more sure than ever that I Belong.

She wants one

I don't want to see NSFW content in my Bluesky feed so I'm glad that this platform has content filters!

*scrolling feed*
*sees filtered NSFW photo*
*immediately clicks and unfilters it by reflex*

...why do I keep doing this? lol

hello sorry to keep posting this but we are in a bad rut, it's getting to the dangerous freeze part of year for Texans and pests are chewing through our ducts, making it hard to heat the house. please consider sharing, it's going to cost $4200 to replace our ducts with metal ones.

2025 is the year that we all truly believe in ourselves and find the confidence to stand up and genuinely be US in the most raw and authentic way possible, and be brave enough to DEMAND to be accepted in a world that wants to keep us down. We can move fucking MOUNTAINS if we want to.

I'm going into 2025 knowing my new life's purpose:

I want to reach people like me who feel "different", and help you find belonging & community. And I want you to see how fucking STRONG you are BECAUSE you're different.

Y'all have SO MUCH POTENTIAL and it's HEARTBREAKING when you can't see it!!!

So that's it in a nutshell!!!

Lots of SHIT this year, but I was somehow able to learn and grow a LOT from all of those experiences. I'm going into 2025 with a much better idea of where I'm going and how I'm getting there.

I wanna do BIG things, and I'm so excited to work towards that ^^ (13/13)

++++++++++ I adopted Xia this year and she has been absolutely incredible and amazing!!! She has been such a light in my life and I didn't know how much I needed her until I had her!!!! (12/13)

---------- The election.

+ There aren't really any positives here, but I do see myself stepping into a role within my community where I think I can help make people feel safe and supported. It feels so meaningful and important to me to be able to do this for folks. (11/13)

- I've struggled a lot with chronic exhaustion.

+ I've been RELENTLESS about seeing doctors and investigating possible causes, and I'm finally starting to see a payoff. I had a surgery to correct a breathing issue. I found a dietary restriction I didn't know I had. I'm slowly improving. (10/13)

- I've struggled a lot with my self-image; insecure, lacking self-confidence, etc.

+ I've built a lot of confidence this year. I'm starting to grow into a more of a leader & mentor at work. I'm starting to confront a lot of my insecurities head-on and work on them instead of ignoring them. (9/13)

- I've had to deal with really stressful & uncomfortable situations w/ my events.

+ I used to assume my discomfort was just me, and avoid hard conversations. I finally stepped up because I felt responsible. I learned it's NEVER just me. It reinforced my gut is reliable & needs to be trusted. (8/13)

- I've struggled to figure out what my purpose in life is. I've felt adrift the last few years, like I didn't have goals or dreams anymore.

+ I found so much purpose in community building and serving the queer community this year, and I finally have new goals AND dreams to work towards!!!!! (7/13)

- I've struggled a lot this year with my mental health: depression, loneliness, anxiety, self-doubt, self-esteem, not belonging, etc.

+ I found out there are more people like me than I realized, and I've been channeling that energy into making space for us. It's going so well!! (6/13)

- Dysphoria. Feeling like the version of me the world sees isn't me. It's made it hard to socialize outside furry for most of my life.

+ I'm finally changing my name and it's unbelievable how much of a difference it makes. I HAVE A NAME NOW! I feel so much more free to talk to people! (5/13)