💙 blue 🩵

twt is down and I need somewhere to scream

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SHINee please bless me for tomorrow’s interview!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

anyway, finally ran away and listened to the audio sneak peak for fireworks and because of you 😭 it’s so good I love because of you already 🤧

can’t believe I just sat through three hours of “you are at your ‘prime age’ you need to get married soon as you’re at your ‘best price’” lecture 😭

(me just smiling through it while downing my wine)

conservative asian parents gathering is so…

“my kid went to (good) school”
“my kid studied (highly favored) major”
“my kid got married at (mid 20s) age”
“my kid work at (big corporation) company”

me and the other ‘kid’ at the table eyeing each other like we’re so tired of this bullshit

finished one drawing then looked at the clock and suddenly it’s almost 3am 😵‍💫 good thing is it really helped with my anxiety lol

anyway, I’ll post it a bit later after a few editing, plus my x acc is still locked anyway

one more to go aaaaahhh I need to find more time

night night 🌙💕

oh my god it’s been a while here 😭

everyday is gloomy without lee jinki I got tired so fast this month 😞

why did i go through his photos around his hiatus date before sleep now I’m just heartbroken thinking of all the pain he must’ve been endured alone

almost tweeted jinki bogoshipda on that app but remembered I might get jumped again for saying so there right now

JINKI I MISS YOUUUUUUUUU

it feels so nice like screaming at the top of the mountain

how I deal with my emotion : draw shinee

since the guilt tripping has already started on the other side (again) I’ll just move here for a while 🙂

breathe…breathe…

watched new normal with my sisters and cousin (she managed to get free tickets with vouchers)

the movie isn’t like what I expected, but there’s one scene with minho that shook me to the core because I didn’t expect it AT ALL 😭

and that’s the short rant, new year just started but the amount of akgaes fights, interfandom frights, toxic assumptions…I just needed to let that out (damn I miss circle maybe I should make a priv acc)

instead of respect, I just feel pitiful at those ppl for having to deal with such mannerless fans

idk if idols who don’t even bother to discipline their fans deserve that kind of respect, some parts of me couldn’t help but think “hmm no wonder their fans behave like that”

“pretentious c*nts after being horrific f*cks to blablabla”

dude, I never cared about your blablabla, I never talked about them, never talked shit about them, tried my best to respect anyone even tho idc abt them, I mean if you want to be hateful at least please aim it at the right person??

usually I would try my best not to get involved and generalize a group of people no matter how crazy they are but damn

when I saw someone from a fandom I’ve never even interacted with called me pretentious for reminding ppl to be kind all I can think of is “oh god are they seriously this dumb???”

have a looooot of things saved in my drafts recently but I’m trying my best to hold it back

long time no posting here wow

another day sleeping at 3-4AM 🫠

at least I can rest for a bit tomorrow

Maybe I should tell my brother to bring my ipad in the afternoon so I can make a little head start and finish it in the office tonight

“I’m sorry sir, I’m currently not in the office, is there anything else I need to know prior to the revision?”

Do I sound like I’m procrastinating? 😭 I swear I have doctor appointment today I can’t access my computer until a bit late today 🥲

I’m so stressed out when texting people much older than me about work like I’ll sound rude and dumb 24/7 🥲

arrived home at 4am last night (this morning) so I’ve been sleeping all day 🫠

still stressed about work and the coming new year but good thing is my cute litol baby nephew is coming tomorrow and I can’t wait to squish his chubby red cheeks

Yes it is 😊

Saw this one earlier
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past few days has been so stressful and I just want to be peaceful today

I feel bad for telling people to ask for permission before reposting my works 🥲 I’m not even concerned for the likes but I get anxious when it get reposted without me knowing…

plus it feels shitty when I ask people and they answer with “oh? you made it?” 🫥

that’s it for today, night night my babies 🥰😴

pajama party 2

I’m taking it really slow this month so idk when can I finish this