Beeb --> FWA 2026

great, now my laptop charger is about to break.
idfk how much more i can take

there's ways around it >_>

can easily get VDJ free if you sail the seven seas, i can send you a good sea shanty to sing, same one i've been using for almost two years.

WHY MIXXX
you traitor >_>
and now you dont have these sick colour rules to tell you if you're in key with a glace

I'm hosting a chill open deck space for people who need it.

I'll be kicking it off with Dark Progressive House/Techno.

Play whatever music you like, relaxing to it for however long you feel like.

Zero expectations, zero stress, just you, the decks, and good company.

#vrchat #opendecks #vrdj

ahh, yea makes more sense to me like that.
and it didnt sound silly, simply misinterpreted it. the english language isnt the clearest at times lol

weekends are just another day for me considering i dont have work or school TwT
i need obligations to be happy ;-;
idk i might be reading that wrong, very mentally exhausted

this is exactly what i needed today, hopefully i can get some sleep before this though.
been up a ungodly amount of time TwT

someday™

need to find a way to break the cycle, but i know ill never try. been saying this for almost a year and i've never tried to do anything about it, i barely have the motivation to get out of bed in the morning, or drink water, eat food, clean my room.

im fucking miserable, every day feels the same as the last, filling my life with meaningless distractions to just try and pass the time as fast as possible. i look at the calendar one moment, and the next its fucking February, what happened to December? where the fuck it go, i dont even remember it.

i miss complaining that i always had too much work, and now i feel like im losing my purpose here, losing communities i once held dear, friends, etc.

i take on work at every opportunity but i rarely enjoy it like i used to.

now all i do is rot away watching yt shorts or playing pavlov all day.

i need to sleep but i feel too shit to sleep, been up almost 24 hours and every time i lay down i just get depressed.

i've lost the steam that i once had when i first joined the VRCDJ scene, and now everything feels different.

though i can still *rarely* enjoy myself.

great, furality going 18+, one of the very few times i can feel happy and surrounded by friends gone ;-;

as if enough events weren't 18+ already.

at least its only 1 year, 19 days.

deeply saddened by this news...

im joining pavlov pro league next season, pretty excited about that.
pavlov is god
pavlov is life
pavlov is also my wife.

this snow got me fucked up TwT
taking a walk and i cannot tell the difference between road and sidewalk, pretty fun to slide around in though.

wish i had my car, wanna go drifting around in the snow ;-;

dream house setup

i did NOT just sleep 24 hours and am only now working on it >_>

im locking in but im locked out Twt

i have 2 days to get my FWA application set done and i've got nothing TwT
im so cooked

i also lost my domain cause im broke ;-;

IM FINALLY FUCKING ALIVEEEEEE

only took me many months to get back into bluesky.

i just slept nearly 24 hours and EVERYTHING is hurting.

idfk how i slept this long but i hope it never happens again

TwT

hell yea!

OwO?~ whats this? *notices my lack of laser certification*

god damn

im fucking depressed :D

i think i have a addiction XD

almost got 17k hours on steam VR and very close to 6k on vrchat

is it still 18+? ;-;