Nik

incredible how many buckaroos do not realize the universes constantly spilling off of them, all the time, every day. you are the most glorious, beautiful being across a thousand different worlds because every choice you make is a REALITY YOU JUST BUILT, and you can build them with love

BTW when I say abolish ICE, I mean abolish it entirely and replace it with exactly nothing. Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free. That's it.

I might lose one of my cats today and I am trying so hard to keep my shit together, but a 40% chance of him making it through this, and then having it almost definitely happen later is not a good prognosis.

New nerf Hammershot i painted for myself for a larp this weekend. Color scheme matches the two Flint-Knocks I did a while ago. I wish I had time to paint my character heraldry in it, but I am up against a clock. #nerf

Truly.

Ultimately, this hypothetical inclusion in this email probably hasn't happened and I should stop being weird about this.

It's a relatively minor thing in the grand scheme, but like... this is really grinding at me and I don't know why.

Honestly, I think it's just because of the thought of being used a prop for someone else's argument. I respect their issues with this, but do not desire to be used as a point

And I am especially having brain worms at the idea of other trans masc player implying this doll is a problem for me for trans reasons, when I explictly told TMP it was not. I know they sent an email, but I am not sure when in relation to me saying this that they sent it, or talking with our mutual

I do not like having words or feelings put in my mouth. Especially for something this personal. Trans masc people are not a monolith.

But i'm getting brain worms because a mutual friend messaged me concerned that I was having the same issues for the same reasons, and well, no. But I guess other trans masc person kind of implied to mutual friend that was the case, and that spiked my brain hard.

But this also led to having a discussion with another trans masc person in our community who mentioned that it gives them massive ick to have themes around pregnancy and babies due to trans reasons. Which, fair! Not an issue i have, but I respect it.

So of course my local larp just acquired one for... something. Not sure what yet. I have asked to be given a signal to fuck off if it comes around while i'm in the area.

Re: baby dolls: they hit my uncanny valley so hard they wrap back around to my brain going "that is a dead child" and it's a super uncomfortable feeling and I therefore do not want to be around them

Having some emotions tonight about a my phobia-adjacent aversion to realistic baby dolls, my local larp that I play, and also potentially being monolith'd together for someone else to make a point about being a trans man. What a weird confluence of things to have brain worms about.

Who's your favorite sexy Dropout car wash team?
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It's done! I'm quite happy with this end product. Can't wait to give it away to it's new owner. #nerf

WIP #nerf sledgefire for a larp this weekend. I'm quite happy with the colors. (The finished product will have the safety orange for insurance purposes, it's just covered by tape right now).

hhhmmmmmm

My wife and I passed this ADORABLE dragon car today. It was being driven by an older lady and I love her and this car so much.

It's #dnd day, and we're in DANGER

I have yet another Old Lady Hobby! Bobbin Lace. The bobbins are extremely satisfying to move and make clacky sounds. I made a string! #fiberarts

Hands down my best thrift store #NERF find: a working nemesis with lithium battery. 7 dollars. I cackled when I tested it at home.

BREAKING: The country of Norway just entered a bill to give transgender Americans asylum in the country of Norway…

LGBTQ+ STRONG! 🌈✨

The newest Game Changer episode was an hour of perfection. How is this only the season premier?!

"Age verification" laws are actually "upload your ID or get your face scanned to access every website, ending anonymity and associating your identity with everything you do online" laws and if more people understood that they would not be down for this authoritarian nonsense

3 nerf rapid strikes painted in the colors of different pokeballs. Left is red, white, and black like a pokeball. Center is a blue, white and black for a great ball, and right is yellow, white, and black like an ultra ball. All 3 have blaze orange safety tips still visible.

A sad day for me. I painted these #nerf blasters a long time ago for a Pokémon horror larp (long story) but I was young and stupid and left batteries in them too long so the motors are all burned out on them. These were my first big project and i'm sad to have to toss them, but they take up space.

Full Party, go!

How to Delete Your X / Twitter Account - A Step-by-Step Guide - MOR10 Here’s how I deleted my X/Twitter account while retaining control over my handle so nobody else can take it.  Caution: Following this step-by-step

Just FYI in case you haven’t heard: El*n just sold X to xAI, which means if you still have an X/Twitter account all your public and private conversations are now fair game for training AI.

Delete your X account immediately.

FINALLY.

(Now I have a month of backstitching to do)

#crossstitch