The Dragon Elk 🔥🌿

Whirl was my Valentine this yr 💕
#transformers

Ong I think the person who held it actually contacted me about featuring my work! ;;; sjsjsjs I’m glad it went well!!

Devastated I still dont have a Sucklet

Sorry I keep using this account like some private vent account ssjsj The low follower count and interaction makes this feel like a safe void to yell into sometimes

Im appreciative for what everyone sees in my art that I dont. Positive reactions are probably the only thing keeping me sharing publicly. Cuz it certainly isnt my confidence pushing me forward

The sad part of my art is that at any given time, I probably have at least a few new pieces to share, but thats usually only after I saw one (1) amazing piece of art that shattered my self worth and now Im hiding from all socials for days in fear or showing subpar work in comparison

'Gray is a really bad color' - my black and white brain

Maybe, but I’ve seen that kinda mood whiplash on here too

It’s a tough line to walk, for sure

Sorry to be the resident cynic of BSky, but its like....a weirdly off-putting juxtaposition of posts being like 'OMG pokemon!!!' and the next is like 'im going to get evicted cuz my salary isnt enough to pay rent'

Getting new Pokemon news while the world is still fucked up and theres no jobs and you're still majorly depressed

I think I’d feel better if I had a Sucklet

Ofc! 💜

UMM HI CHIITAN??! big fan 💛

I wish I had new art to offer in apology

Thank you to everyone who puts up with me. Im sorry Im like this

Funny enough, these feelings dont extend to others. Idc if im hanging around those types, or hanging with furry nerds at a con.

Im most interested in making MYself look enticing and worthwhile, since rn I enter any social situation with the mindset of being the least valuable one in the room.

Theres alot id like the change; the issue isnt the lack of desire to do so. Its the lack of skills to create the change. I can practice all day to make my art look a certain way, but if it just...doesnt look like that? What can I do

I appreciate the kind sentiment, I just sadly dont share it

I’m made to feel like it sometimes

Not personally, but I have seen others who share certain opinions of mine get ostracized, so I expect similar results should I speak out

Without going too deep into the 20 yrs of therapy I’ve had to deal with this deep rooted issue, I gifted it to myself based on external milestones and societal norms.

People want to be around people who have success, influence, power, etc.

I have none of that, thus I’m of little value to others

😬😬😬 If you say so!

Uhhh is that the right word? Cuzzzz that’s not really me….😭
Can’t say I’ve ever been attracted to a felon before sjsjsjsjs

Its probably better I stay public cuz then at least I gotta tamp down the worst of my thoughts

The day this site adds the 'private account' feature is both the day I actually start to enjoy using this account and the day I absolutely repulse my followers with my very ick true personality

The downside of seeing more art on here is that more art just amplifies how much I dislike my own in comparison :U

My hobbies are self-sabotage 💜

I dont answer friends messages cuz I genuinely see no value in myself and so why would anyone want to talk with me? I literally have nothing to offer. Knowing me helps you in no way

I appreciate the kind words but respectfully, I feel VDay should showcase romantic love, not self love. Self love can be a daily thing that needs no other person; romantic love is much harder to obtain so its celebrated as a bigger achievement