Nissdixen

if you didn't get the friend request my discord is dixendoster_41065
the number was never removed on mine apparently.

people have been surprisingly respectful regarding my boundaries throughout my time on the internet. so i doubt ill ever get into any one sided conversations about fetishes as I've seen that happen online a lot with people who wont take no for an answer!
so yeah ill join !! (:

apparently everyone likes WIP screenshots a lot more than fully completed works its really weird.
I'm not one to follow trends for attention but this is really effective to get around posting something unfinished.

my neglected planesona
i cannot bring myself to finish this quickly

i could use some consultation on what career i should work towards as a second alternative. they told me i had all the time in the world to figure that out as a kid and that lead me to procrastinate.

but I'll be continuing with art classes in college as of this month. I might have another opportunity to make friends and get some insight on what my future will look like,if there's still a chance that I could get an art related job and if I'm in a better headspace by then.

One main reason I started to post art online was because I didn't have any friends to share my art with. Since graduating, I've only felt comfortable talking to 2-3 friends my age. but unfortunately, i distance myself unintentionally from them as i don't have enough in common with them

there's a low chance I'll ever pursue an art related career because it would require myself to build a large platform and an online persona to qualify for anything. these things of which i may not be mentally stable enough to do.

uploaded the wrong file noooo!!!!
i just finished adding more detail to the face

my compulsive perfectionism is both a mental illness and a skill :D

i tried using krita again because of this one specific brush i like....
no airplanes again, sorry ):

Mitsubishi f-1, yes (:

I forgot to post this from last year
also, happy 1 in the morning

ill be up to it but I'm worried ill just sit around inactive most of the time unless someone initiates conversation with me

and this might come as a surprise to some but ,I'm not into fetish content either, and ill get uncomfortable if there's too much uncensored porn around.

if only i could edit posts....
i don't see why that that shouldn't be allowed on here

sorry if i deleted and uploaded this too many times i have this annoying compulsion to fix very little details that i missed after uploading 🙃

wasting time on 3d movie maker
i finally got it to work

and
here we go again...

it gets a lot worse when things like fatigue or lack of proper sleep come into effect as well as my adhd symptoms that can persist even while medicated. i experience this alot during the summer for some reason even if im not always outside.

yes, I've been meaning to draw fanart of one of your character for quite a while, actually!
but what I'm mostly worried about is struggling to participate in the event because its hard for me to draw quickly especially when fighting compulsive perfectionism.

to my surprise i actually forgot i drew fanart from polle from mouthwashing a few months ago. i guess this would count more as popular media

i know this photo sucks, sorry. i did not feel like scanning because nothing is 100% finished and even then, id still need to make adjustments to the scanned drawing
my brain so fried

and
here we go again...

I'm either lethargic or feel like I'm on coke at night and i cant sleep (its going to happen again)

i wish i could enjoy falling asleep like before...
but at what cost, really?

i have never participated in artfight(and probably never will)
because my brain chemistry gets weird during this month specifically :/

most times i ever make fanart for any media its most likely going to be something really obscure nobody cares about. (,:

sadly, 3dmm didn't work properly when i tried to play it for the first time. i need to try again if it doesn't take up too much space on my computer.
but i still wanted to make fanart of this character because i cant find any online

McZee from windows 3d movie maker because yeah.

its confusing because i don't have a character that i can pinpoint as a self insert. as many traits as i can share with a character i will always see myself as an observer rather than a participant in my work.

both of them are influenced by my personality/appearance myself to some degree but id have to say that i can relate to the monster more than the human