Dawn Midlight, Witch Princess🟣👑

Immmm a goooddd kitttyyyy and good kitties do what their Ownerrrrrs sayyyy

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mrreeeeowwww =w=

Hiiiiiiii~

-w-

I'm such a fragile bitch, I go outside doing casual grocery shopping and errands for 2 hours and I'm utterly exhausted and worn out...

*flomp* -w-

Felt cute, might lure you into the forest and TF you into a docile lil doll later~

Everyone else is doing just fine, the summer heat is doing good for the plants, we have Cucumbers, Strawberries and tomatoes forming :3

First sunflower of the year :3 also bonus snapdragons!

A bit surprising and wild to realize that, like

Damn, I'm not restlessly wandering wondering what's wrong with me, I'm here enjoying things with the people I care about in the present moment. Keeping busy and happy, aside from the rough bouts of sickness, this is contentedness.

haunted me for....at least a decade

I dunno if its just the anxiety meds doing their job, perhaps the fact that I have 6 amazing partners who make me feel happy, cared for, and utterly lucky. Maybe both?

I'm not constantly looking for a arbitrary something, I feel content, safe and happy

I'm not....restlessly looking for something arbitrary. I haven't been feeling that anxious urge that I need to be putting myself out there, or I'll miss something that could fix or change everything, a cure to the "Something" I was missing.

Shit that's kinda major that feeling has on/off

//Positive

Damn, I just realized something that kinda floored me.

I haven't been spending as much time on social media lately, I've been pretty busy and mostly focused on my partners between being sick.

But that's a sign of something that....honestly I felt like I kinda struggled with for awhile

wow the adult content ban deems queer stuff "pornographic" by default who would've thunk

the government-by-transgression thing is slowly reaching its natural death spiral endpoint where they have to become more and more extremely transgressive because the only recruiting tool they have left is "appealing to people whose only joy in life is transgression for its own sake"

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it entered my brain again...

Who wouldn't love that -w-

They're doing this to me later....

Hopefully tomorrow is better, I haven't had a day this difficult on my body in awhile....

And its not even smoky outside, ugh...

What a bleh day all around

A rough day all around it seems.

Bleugh....

also the frustrating core of all this....

I got sick initially due to people being careless and inconsiderate of other's health

And EVERY wildfire in our providence was man-made by people being selfish uncaring non-cautious assholes.

Cool I have to be non-function because of selfish idiots. /s

I've tried picking up several things today, even things I thought would be a light load....

Nope, head damn very shortly fuzzes out, and I start feeling sick and have to lay down again.

I want to be more than just this, to do more, I feel so restless and frustrated when it gets like this

And when it gets like that, its hard to get upset and spiral out.

Because its just like "Oh boy, can't do any of the things I want because my head is constantly spinning, time to put down that game I want to play, can't even consider reading or focusing on art"

Its so unfair and gods....I hate it

The smoke moved out yesterday afternoon, but my lungs are still irritated, my chest tight, my head fogged over, and just damn

Its so fucking tiring, having to be trying to do stuff, and the brain fog kicks in and puts me back into bed for hours over the slightest strain

I'm so sick of it

Why can't my body just fucking work right consistently?

I know if I get frustrated it won't serve, anything but goddamn, I'm so utterly sick and tired of having to put things aside because my head won't stop spinning because of 1 day of smoke

Gods, its so frustrating....

I can't wait for Summer to be over, wildfire season is such a strain on my body, even if it is a little better this year I could do without the random bouts of severe brain fog, dizziness, and exhaustion.

I have too much I want to do to be satisfied with having to rest so often

I just hate how its like

1 Day of smoke equates out to me not feeling well for 1-2 days afterwards. I have things I want to do dammit, not be constantly sick and head foggy

Ugh -w-

I wish my body didn't hate and fight me so much, especially during wildfire season it just sucks how consistently sick and/or weak I get

It has re-entered my brain due to recent events....

At this point I feel giving any ground to payment processors to censor content is dangerous. Very obvious to me that paypros must be treated like water companies, ISPs, electric company: Not a platform, but a utility

If you empower the utility to engage in deplatforming, it inevitably mulches the

For the record, I'm not against anything adult or sexual, but like damn, very clearly standards are only enforced selectively and used to strongarm artists and vulnerable groups.

Its just complete hypocritical bullshit.

Just funny seeing "Creators are allowed to swear in the first minute of a video without being demonitized" and seeing ads on youtube where not only are they using copyrighted shit from other media, but not even thinly veiling sexual things at all.

Funny how that works

I know, its mostly rhetorical, I could respect these people if they actually had tenets and things they believed in consistently and weren't just using false puritanicalism to censor art and persecute groups they don't like.

It just makes all of it even more blandly obvious