>_< mdni

today is alr so fawkin shitty i’m craving a cig rn more than ever

with bpd i was so scared of being alone and i’m so happy now bc i’m comfortable with it & i like being by myself, the love from my friends & the love i give to others fulfills me but like.. damn if i don’t want somebody to play with my hair and let me lay on their lap like a house cat

& im so bad ab leaving at the first sign of trouble. literally when i was with my favorite ex i was crying everyday bc they just kept doing shit to upset me & yet i stayed until they moved states and didn’t tell me a day before and then got with somebody else a week later like #Damn i’m stupid

every relationship i’ve had i have always been the one to care more 😭 and when i’m in love. i’m like.. that person is my world and iwould do anything to make them happy but i have never gotten that. and i cant even picture someone feeling that way ab me lolol

didn’t want. to sad post on other acc lolz but i wonder if i will ever have a relationship experience that does not end up disappointing me that would be so cool

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