Pax

one of my favorite games is guild wars 2, and they added an NPC that is named Paxx
and they have 2 achievements you can earn a title from
and i'm cackling
can't believe i'm in gw2

A story in 4 parts

Can't tell if my stomach is just being extra mad or if my new immuno suppressant is actually failing.
I did eat some chicken nuggets last night but I'm still in really horrible amounts of pain today. Even breathing hurts from moving my stomach :(

I need a physical calendar at this point or something because I have so many doctor appointments each month im legit losing track of what day is which appointment.
This is madness

Anyways if any of my fellow chronically ill followers are on or have taken LDN, lemme know how your experience was. I want more of my life back. I'm so tired of being in excruciating pain all the time :(

That. I'm gonna assume it's my brain adjusting, but if it continues I'm gonna request a lower dose and see if that helps. Because yes, I don't want to be high 24/7. I genuinely hate it. I space out and forget what day it is and lack any anxiety/stress to take things seriously. Which is an issue

Kind of in a state of lala land. LDN isn't supposed to give you any sense of high/euphoria since its designed for people getting off of addiction. Which sounded great to me because I hate pain meds that leave me loopy. It also makes it so you don't get addicted to it (in theory) so idk whats up with

After a few days of taking it. And if it doesn't then contact my doctor. LDN also made me a pee machine for the first few days, which was awful.
Over all getting more used to it and feeling better.
I do get a lot of "euphoria" from it though, which is annoying. Because its hard to focus being-

Phenomenal. I had some bad insomnia for the first few days, which is normal I guess. So my sleep schedule is a mess. But once I do fall asleep I'm OUT. ♥️ ive been waking up a bit more energized too.
My pain isn't too much different, if anything I keep getting migraines but online said that will stop

Update on new med: so my doctor started me on low dose naltrexone for my chronic pain. We're thinking i might have CRPS in my back, but not entirely sure.
She might have started me a bit too high of a dose (2.5mg) I read online its better to start at 0.5mg.
My sleep, once I get to sleep, is-

My attempt at an inktober 🙏
I wanna get better at detailed line art but my art is so color/painted focused it makes it hard. The lines get in the way loblol
This took me almost 7 hours too wtf
Why am I so slow at art lately
#Inktober2025

Thank you!! And same omg

My attempt at an inktober 🙏
I wanna get better at detailed line art but my art is so color/painted focused it makes it hard. The lines get in the way loblol
This took me almost 7 hours too wtf
Why am I so slow at art lately
#Inktober2025

Been a stressful few days
But Yuuji is doing a lot better, thankfully.
I also got started on a new pain management med that my insurance won't cover since its a Compound medication but I'm really hoping it works
Slowly getting my shit together
Great heavens

Sobbing at the kindess you guys have showed me omg 😭❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much
With the new fear of not getting EBT next month has made this situation scarier as I’m disabled and don’t make a lot.
You all are so kind, you have so idea 😭❤️🙏
Any RT’s are so appreciated ahhh ❤️

Work in progress

Thank you so much to the people who donated 😭♥️♥️🙏 omg
I still need help, if you would prefer art instead of a direct donation pls DM me 🙏♥️ but let anything helps. Even a $1 at this point 😭♥️
Love you all, you're so sweet. I feel so blessed to have such kind followers wow

I've been giving him wet food with a lot of water added to get his hydration up to fight off the uti.
Vet said it was a mild uti, which I'm glad.
But we don't know his exact age so he could be around 6-7 or even older. And older male kitties can die from that.

My son got a UTI 🥲
he had to get antibiotics, nausea meds and fluids bc he threw up 4x today...
Any vet bill help would be appreciated 🥲🥲
It was all around $240, not the absolute worse. But I'm broke asf this month... 🥲
ko-fi.com/A044GYE

They had to add how to pronounce his name on the bottle
The vet tech asked if his name was from Yu-Gi-Oh
I was like "no... but it is from another anime.." "ah. That makes sense" 💀
Hes doing better today. Hes being such a love bug too. I wanna believe he knows I'm helping 🥺♥️

Thank you ♥️♥️ he ate earlier so I'm very glad about that

My son got a UTI 🥲
he had to get antibiotics, nausea meds and fluids bc he threw up 4x today...
Any vet bill help would be appreciated 🥲🥲
It was all around $240, not the absolute worse. But I'm broke asf this month... 🥲
ko-fi.com/A044GYE

WIP

WORK DAMN YOU

what brush do you use if i may ask?

I texted my landlord today to check on him/send someone to do a wellness check.
Its one big house but part of it is walled off to make an "apartment" and our landlord is a old lady that owns it.
Shes super nice so she's immediately taking action 🙏🙏♥️

My partner thinks its a really bad trip too
He keeps turning on the shower and so I wonder if he's freaking out and trying to down that way
Or got hurt and hes freaking out and trying to clean the wound and mad
Idk though. I hope he's okay

Had to call the cops on my neighbor and legit tell the operator "it sounds like someone is transforming into a wolf next door. I wish I was joking. Hes growling, screaming and hitting walls."
💀💀
Idk whats going on but holy shit

Smoke? Nah, noodle time 😎😎😎 hell yeah

Just a reminder I made a new video yesterday ♥️