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Full moon antics I guess

We re supposed to be getting comods tomorrow too so that's just gonna throw another wrench in things

I feel like a failure

I just want to be calm and regulated damnit

Here I was just in ignorant bliss just cleaning all day. Feeling good about straightening up while I had already goy stuff for dinner. Had mutual aid progress. Then my worse nightmare has to happen and the keys are gone.

I just don't understand how I had them to drive home but just vanish in such a short distance. I usually put them in the same spot everyday and they weren't there. So I could only assume they dropped somewhere. And yet they're nowhere. 😡

Thought maybe they fell in the hamper cuz I put clothes that were all over the room in there with my work clothes on top. Keys weren't in my work pants, my jacket or anywhere in the hampers. Im at a complete loss.

(technically not my room, but the room where I store my clothes in my half of a closet). But I looked in every dresser, pulled out the dressers, pulled everything out. Shook out every article of clothing. No keys.

The last time I had something like this happen was when I lost a ton of weight after my surgery so my engagement ring was loose and it just slid off across the tool, heard it bounce, have never found it since.

I got a ride to work. Just glad thats worked out and it's Friday. But I'm so angry that the keys could go missing when I literally just came from the living room, to the bathroom and then my room.
And I did end up straightening up right after I got dressed. Hence why I thoroughly searched but nada.

Yeah never found the keys in spite of clearing out every room, article of clothing, searching every crevice of the few rooms I was in before I changed out of my work clothes. So idk I'm so fed up rn.

Last time I was burnt out like this in md I got in a car wreck cuz I was so exhausted post partum. Ppl just always think I can do everything and eventually this is the kind of stuff that ends up happening cuz I'm in constant fight or flight and burn out

I keep begging ppl to help cuz my brain is overloaded but they just keep expectingebto do everything when I'm only one person .and this is what happens.

I was just wondering worried about getting rid of clutter and now who knows where they might have fallen out my pocket. I've already looked the three places I was multiple times and cleaned it out so idk.

Looking everywhere can't find them. This is what happens when ppl keep putting shit on my plate when I say I'm over capacity
.and all I did when I got off work was clean. So now I'm really fucked.

Have to walk the kids cuz I misplaced the car keys

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Whether oppressors of society are pathologizing a target, or pushing social conditioning in hopes that ppl become more desensitized, it's all deputizing.

The most obvious fact that ableism is policing at its core
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And I'll admit it was an easy way to get my frustrations without actually having to "use my words". That's what alot of conditioned ableism is. (Which only adds to my suspicions that they get popularized to begin with the intent that everyone's adaption of said language should be monolithic.

Not saying in perfect. Im guilty of it from when I wasn't very evolved myself. But when u know better u do better.

Billionaires don’t get involuntary commitment. Psych diagnoses are used to police and control the poor!

It's very much looking like how chaos agents reacted to amber heard and allegations of reciprocal abuse.

And it's exactly cuz ppl keep outsourcing the harm to evade ever addressing wealth inequality, patriarchy, imperial core..etc.

But as alot of folks keep saying, its contradictory how these folks will ask others to save the very same groups perpetuating these power structures, at the expense of the most vulnerable.

I also think alot of folks don't want to admit they were wrong about pathologizing "woke" so displacing all blame onto armchair diagnosing ppl as narcissist is one way of criticizing power while "owning the libs" to not legitimize other reclamation movements like metoo

Dehumanizing other ppl "to quickly go viral" is not as successful as folks think it is. But I suppose if they knew better they wouldn't do fomo think and parrot each other in droves.

"but everybody agrees and is saying this" (band wagon appeal)
"But this is the fastest way to go viral"
(Compromising on core principles)

It's totally possible to advocate for an issue with parroting problematic scripts. Unfortunately so many folks are fixated on going viral they don't see how the very content they're pushing creates even more barriers to creating systemic change.