i really don't like people who project their insecurities onto others. it annoys me so much..... i have little to no respect for this kind of people....haha...... get your shit together or fuck off

if youre here since 2020 you know how everything went downhill after my diagnosis and shit wow never end yourself man

i cannot contain my happiness and it feels like a dream..... i never thought i could ever achieve this....... the shit ive been through since the start of my degree just made me feel like i should just end it all man.... im sorry i almost cannot fathom this shit

NEVER KILL YOURSELF

my family found out i can draw and now they’re asking for a portrait 😟🔫

ive been listening to jesu self titled ever since i got the japan press cd

i still love malaysia for the convenience of qr pay and seamless cashless these bitches need to keep up

almost got a tattoo and almost got minyak attar botoi besaq gila tapi aku takdak cukup cash so postpone

all for the gigi susu that wouldnt fall off on its own

5 months until braces free……… 😞 im sick of this shit already

hmmmmm………

who can lend me 400 bucks i want ferragamo signoria misteriosa edp 😞

do what 🤨

its so fucking scary getting old but lek lu lek lu im only some fine mid 20s mami…….. 🤫

today got me tearing up to this shit man…..

mmmmmm memang surrrrrr padu!!

i still cannot believe i managed to curb my tiktok addiction by deleting my account yo anything is fucking possible and i know i can quit smoking eventually

also fuck twitter i uninstalled

nasi biryani ayam madu and it felt like eating nasi biryani gula gula

wym babes you’re already on the list 😝

but im not gonna shut up really, cause i have earned the shit to talk about this cause i have never been loved the way i wanted to be loved

i can’t believe im getting fucking married with someone who actually likes and love me for me ok im gonna shut up

i am now my mothers therapist and she loves it and i love that for her

bawling my eyes out because i just came home and saw the bowl of food i left for juno is still sitting there…half empty :(

tired of living not because of anything but myself.. like genuinely tired

but here i am, crying over it sometimes… i know it will pass and its not like im not used to go on without the people i have loved… so im allowing myself to grieve over this as much as i need to.

im gonna be honest, im actually affected by it…. i ended things with the person i thought was my bestest friend. in the past i didnt grieve for the best friends i lost, but this one is actually painful and i didnt think i would feel anything.

the day my doctor told me “your dad has bipolar and you inherited it from him” i was so angry towards him cause i believed he’s the reason im fucking retarded but now that i look back at it, he’s also a victim of his upbringing and circumstances. so shit happens and i can’t blame him.

as much as i am angry and have expressed my detestation towards my dad, i, actually have sympathy and compassion for him. i understand why he is the way he is. i mean, i literally inherited his bipolar and that makes us both the same….

I luv hanging out wif them <3