nohbody

finally done with that vacation. i didn't have my laptop for a week so i was away from the internet. and i also gained like five pounds. fasting for three days just to reset. bleh

im a disgrace to society (<- guy who has only seen one movie this month)

ate raspberries and frosting yesterday and didn't log it, but still lost a pound. super scared to start traveling tomorrow because im going to be almost exclusively eating out for like a week. so i dunno if i can allow myself to eat pasta today even though i want to.

was extremely close to bingeing yesterday but i held strong and lost a pound. just accepting that i am obsessing over food and acknowledging the feeling helps. and today i just feel great...struggled to finish my 200 calorie breakfast and currently not having any cravings

♡ Daily thinspo ♡ pt. 6
#thinspo #bodygoals #lemonwatersky
#ed #edtwt #edbsky #ricecakesky #caterpillarsky

going to georgia for my birthday because i cant stand being in town. maybe it should be a good thing or something that i have people who would bother me asking to hang out, but i just cant do it. course im still spending time with people, so i hope i can still keep up appearances...

i think in all accordance of definitions i did 'relapse'. if relapsing just means that i got triggered and need a sense of control again. i was happy the thinner i was...the more disordered i was...recovery isn't a sham but it is one for me.