Nanette Tully

- would do because Belle asked what was going on. It wasn’t my story to tell part of it was but not that part. That would be for him to decide not me.]

- because he was holding her when she started to have issues. He doesn’t ever talk about that because he was a little kid and I don’t even think Vinny is aware of that. I’m not really sure. I was thankful that Lexi gave him the option to walk out of the room, but I was curious to see what he -

[I walked in the living room as soon as Lexi told me to come get my best friend. He was being extremely inappropriate, but it was funny. I leaned down to whisper in Lexi‘s ear.] can you put on the video of Ronnie please? [I knew this was one of the things that was difficult for Junior mainly -

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- too. He has a tendency to act like he is the only one that was affected by losing Ronnie and he wasn’t.

- Vinny was different though, and he had to know that.] Octavio didn’t even see her. So that shows you anything I hope it shows you how serious I am about you. I know Pedro will be back at some point because that’s the kind of brother he is but right now. I’m glad he’s not here and I’m sure she is -

[I smiled going into the kitchen to grab my purse and pull out my wallet. Vinny probably thought I was insane, but I pulled out a small picture that I keep with me.] the video is better, but here’s the picture I carry with me all the time. [I never shared Ronnie with anyone not even my ex-husband. -

- His jaw and smiled.] maybe tomorrow or a little later I’ll have Lexi pull out the video of my daughter so you can see her for yourself.

- for that. I know that I need to go back to my apartment and get some clothes and things in the next day or so but I don’t plan on leaving her or E right now. I know she can handle things, but I also don’t know what coming off of those meds is going to do for that. I am really nervous. [I kissed -

[I smiled, trying to calm my own thoughts down just a little. ] I know that doesn’t make this any easier. I still feel like it’s partly my fault because I didn’t listen to her. We all thought we knew better and we didn’t. All I hope is that she doesn’t lash out. if she does, I can’t really blame -

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- shit for being part of the reason, Lexi has been suffering this long.]

- anything small like that. I had fucked up and unfortunately, my best friend was paying the price. Thankfully Belle caught it before we lost her. I didn’t even know what to say so I didn’t say anything. I just stood there letting Vinny hold me until I felt better because right now I felt like -

- part of me will always love him, but the other part of me wanted to punch him in the face for grabbing Lexi and making her uncomfortable like that. I was a little shocked when Alex grabbed his and dragged him out of the house. I felt bad that I haven’t really noticed how sober Alex was or -

[I was frozen, seeing that many pill bottles on the ground made me want to puke. I was the one giving her all these meds, but I wasn't counting. I didn’t realize she was being pumped full of that much medicine. Of course when I told Pedro what was going on, he had to come down and play Superman. -

- about Lexi and she needs you. Belle just told us that the medication she’s on right now is slowly killing her. [I didn’t get a chance to say anything else before he was out of the room and running down to the garage. His lungs be damned.]

- have been here in the first place. I ran up the stairs because I was the only one brave enough to wake the beast especially now. When he rolled over and stared at me I had to swallow back the tears. “What do you want Nan?” I knew he didn’t feel good so this was brave on my part.] you were right-

- had no problem going down there, but as soon as I saw, how many pills were on the floor, my heart dropped. Then I suddenly felt to need the run back up the stairs when Belle said that we were slowly killing her unintentionally. If I had just listened to Pedro to begin with, maybe we wouldn’t -

[I surprised myself when I talked to Vinny about my princess.] her name was Veronica, but we were gonna call her Ronnie after my dad. [I looked down at my phone when I got a text from Lexi saying to meet her in the garage.] I think you got the same text from Junior? I wonder what’s going on. [I -

after lunch, I will do more repliesIt’s freezing in my house.

- Pedro took me back to the hospital that day and we sat in a waiting room for six hours. The only reason they finally saw me was because they saw blood. She was gone an hour later. If they had actually listened to me or him, she might still be here now.

- so both Pedro and Lexi left work that day earlier than they wanted to and they took me to the doctor. The doctor told us everything was fine that I was just paranoid. I wasn’t paranoid three hours later. I was in excruciating pain and Lexi had gone to charming to make sure Alex was coming up. -

[I scooted closer to him, keeping my voice low.] yeah I’ll be fine It’s just sometimes when I look at Lexi or Grace I wonder what she would’ve looked like how she would’ve been. [I exhaled slowly.] it’s part of the reason this family doesn’t trust doctors. I could tell something was off that day. -

I’m loving these stories though. I’m so excited to see what happens next because we never know ❤️

I believe I’m caught up now. I will check again when I’m done eating ❤️

- have my regrets about that, but I can’t change time.

- she was born early and only lived about 20 minutes. I don’t really talk about her very much because it’s just hard but you had to know for going forward. I don’t usually talk to him on this day because he gets a little too rough. Plus, he’s not really a fan of the fact that I committed Lexi. I -

- [I turned my attention to Vinny and spoke quietly.] hopefully he can get her to talk to people again because she barely says boo to me anymore. I get her to take her meds but that’s about it recently. Pedro not talking to me I can understand. Today would’ve been our daughter‘s birthday, but -

[I leaned into Vinny, trying to breathe through my own emotions at the moment. I knew there was something wrong with Lexi, but I didn’t know how to fix it and she barely talks to me. She barely talks to anyone anymore to be honest. Once she realized she was married I watched her disappear with E. -

after lunch, I will work on replies since I have a lot of energy and I can focus