delicious pancakes

ITS SO GORGEOUS OH MY GOD,,, my eyes have been blessed

lowkey forgot this acc existed

everyone keeps telling me to get over it and i probably should bc my friends all love her but i still feel gross abt it

am i stupid for still being upset abt what some girl did to me freshman year... she didnt even touch me or anything but she made a lot of rlly gross unwanted s*xual comments towards me bc she thought i was a lesbian. in front of my friends. and then after i reported her she did it to someone else

she just thinks it's like "guy who kisses up to his jealous gf" and that's really not how it is but i'm not explaining that said friend is trans and her partner is nb
tbf the best friend in question has a weird thing with asking out a lot of girls out of desperation. she asked out 4 in a month. ew

i mean she thinks the thing between my best friend & her partner is way straighter than it is and that said partner is a jealous gf when i really don't think that's the case. i just think they're mildly patronizing and don't know how to deal with mentally ill people who don't get much support

i feel really bad... even if my mom n i aren't on the best of terms all the time my mom broke down abt it because she's really sad that these people aren't treating me well and they're ignoring me and even if she doesnt really get their dynamic she js. broke down in front of me. she never does that

if you are not latino you cannot be accepting apologies or excuses for supporting racism against latinos, period. there's no excuse for racism ever unless you are like 3 years old

broo i was pissed abt discrimination against latinos at the ripe age of 8. maybe this is just me being latino myself but i remember being really vividly infuriated in general when racism was discussed at school... 18 is definitely old enough to know better, you're exposed to it so much by then

i dont know the whole context but i swear people are unable to take accountability... calling latinos "rabid dogs" is fucking insane

only vaguely, i saw some posts abt it on my tl but i wasnt looking through them, i was trying to find smth else

WHY AREW PEOPLE TRYING TO JUSTIFY IT bro can these mfs leave us alone... thats not ok... its not ok to dehumanize anyone least of all because of their race

twitter stop being racist challenge (impossible)
bro i swear literally no one is normal about latinos pls leave us the fuck alone

WHAT

i wish i didn't perceive every little thing as an aggression against me and i know i cant be everyone's first priority but i do wonder if i'm *anyone's* first priority... and whether or not the people i know irl genuinely care for me as a person

not the time...

i never even get to talk to her anymore it's all weird. why does friendship have to be so complicated. i know i'm quiet and detached and not a good friend but i just. idk. i wish i could talk to people more effortlessly. bc i don't like losing the few friendships i have

i really hate having my friends' instagrams... they were all posting pictures from halloween. without me. my bsf posted a picture of some random statue from a museum in her october photo dump but nothing of me. and she had the audacity to put a picture of a bracelet w her and her gfs initials too

i wish i could but i don't have much of a say since these are school friends and i don't get out much otherwise
can't wait to get out of here tho

do you really need to label it. you feel what you feel

bro ofc im gonna be mad when you extend an invitation and do a group "french kiss" (<- members of the band kiss but. w french flags) costume with the girl you know sexually harassed me but ok

she told her partner im shittalking them and they confronted me in the fucking lunchroom while going "i need to talk to you" in front of all of my friends im gonna lose it

like. i'm on meds that make me feel like shit and my mom refuses to let me taper off them and try something else. i don't have a proper diagnosis or a therapist. i don't know the results of my psych evals. i don't have support. pls leave me alone

i remember i vented about my mental health to one of them and they were like "it's like you're not even trying to get better" ... that's so dismissive

it's gotten to the point where my former closest friend has started prioritizing the people i introduced her to over talking to me
that's... fine, i guess, but i feel ignored. i want to confront some of them about it but they'd probably put the blame on me like usual anyway

they never tell me anything, they never include me in any of their shit, they never go out of their way to talk to me when i try to greet them whenever i see then, they always grimace a bit when i talk, if i'm doing something wrong, please tell me! you're making me feel unwelcome

i don't know why i put people off so much or why i can't maintain any friendship but without fail one by one my irl friends are talking to me less and less and giving me more and more weird looks and justifying the actions of people who actively spread hate i can't take it. i feel like an alien

cant remember the last time i ate smth and wasnt sick

no <--- chronic intestinal issues from the age of 5

i don't think having partially gray vomit is normal. then again literally what is normal about this whole thing it's been 3 years and they still dont know what it is