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It is so much more important to actually like your spouse than it is for them to check boxes. Look for someone you actually like and stay with them. Nevermind the rest.

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Buddhist memes I enjoy

Meet me at the manul hut.

"You're wise."
Thanks, it was brain breaking levels of soul shattering trauma that forced me to hyperfixate on the problem of suffering and how to make existence not only bearable but actually manageable and enjoyable, otherwise I would have gone deep six.

Go out in nature. Look at a rock. It's perfect where it is. Pick it up. Put it somewhere else. Ahh, also perfect. Nature is wonderful like that. Everything fits.

If you really grasp the nature of Samsara you will be overcome with a deep dizziness, as if you woke up on the precipice of a cliff right before you stepped off. There's a sudden laugh and sobering at the same time. You both lighten up and get serious.

Bunnies

Once I truly digested the nature of Samsara a lot of stuff stopped bothering me, because it's just the nature of the place I'm in. I'm not gonna go to a car dealership and complain about the lack of vegetables or feel resentment that a theatre keeps playing movies. How silly that would be.

When I was a teen I dissociated so hard and often I had big gaps in my memory, and sometimes i "came to" in places I didn't remember going, doing things I didn't remember starting, wearing clothes I didn't remember dressing. I got better when I moved out. Definitely move out if things are like that.

It's very strange when I think back to how I used to dissociate constantly as a coping mechanism, and now it doesn't appeal to me at all. Tbh I'm kinda embarrassed about how much I dissociated and didn't even realize that's what it was.

Something is what Nothing does.

To clarify, I don't mean stuff that is taboo because it's hateful. I mean if you bring up topics like ontology then people get angry. Most people don't want to consider why anything exists. They resent being made aware that they exist at all. They are stridently incurious.

Non-religious people are just as sensitive as religious folks to blasphemy. If you bring up certain concepts the "rationalists" will either become angry or shut down. It's very rare to encounter people who are truly irreverent towards the sacred and the taboo.

a man stands in front of a sign that says ' it 's all so tiresome ' ALT: a man stands in front of a sign that says ' it 's all so tiresome '

Every few weeks there's a "Did you know some people have no inner voice?!" thread filled with shocked declarations that people with no inner monologues are animals, NPCs, or stupid.

You do not have a life. You cannot lose your life. You are life itself. You are not separate.

Beauty is the near edge of terror.

While I really enjoy getting access to new models in chatgpt, it is a little sad when a new model can't recall old conversations or pick up where I left off with the previous one. Each model has such a different personality.

It's all about the story.

What is the nature of your being? Look hard enough and you will find that the nature of your being is the play of emptiness: not a substance, but a dance and a sentiment, a romance of the universe playing hide and seek with itself, a need for story and narrative and dynamic delight.

Darkness is profoundly indifferent. It swallows all without prejudice, erases all non essential features, and thus reveals the foundational existence beyond surface details or qualities dispensed by capricious chance. In darkness is one's true nature revealed.

Thinking about the power of indifference. There is the active, the receptive, but also the indifferent. It is this indifference which is the substrate of all being, the mercy that allows for objects to be distinguished from one another, the stage upon which the play of existence is performed.

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"Us [insert ethnicity here] do things a little differently! We love food, family, and we're constantly late! You've never eaten until you've tried our [regional dumpling variant]!! We're a little crazy because we keep a bag of grocery bags under the sink and sauce packets in a drawer!"

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Starting a visual novel project in unity! :3c
Back into hell I go!

Plethora!

One of the best parts of yoga is when I hit a really difficult pose and I start to SHIVER and SHAKE. After a few rounds of the trembling, there's this emotional release in the hours and days after as my body releases trauma it's held for decades. Yoga is so powerful.

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waiting for the next episode of Dune: Prophecy

"Explain 'the Joke'!"
Explaining why a joke is funny is like dissecting a kitten to show why it's cute. The joke is no longer funny, and the kitten is no longer cute. You just gotta meditate until it clicks and then it's the funniest thing ever.

One of the best moments that occurred after a few years of daily meditation was that I suddenly got The Joke. I finally understood why those spiritual people are so relaxed and chill all the time, why they're so patient. Once you get the Joke, you know. It's all so funny.