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I'm not too late for #tummytuesday right? Emergency squishes deployed!

Mostly by this I mean, I'd rather be asked a question or know why someone is interested in me than just "hi". While the scammers' messages are pretty contrived, the average real person makes it so you have no idea where to steer the conversation.

Something is wrong when Nigerian art scammers send better first messages than real furries.

I must be the only furry in the world that doesn't find modern video games interesting. I don't want more roguelikes and 100 hour timesinks with a ton of mechanics, just give me something I can pick up and play and move onto the next thing I find interesting.

Yeah... I've kind of figured out that capitalistic pursuits don't matter but I don't know what else matters. I don't have the drive to do anything.

I hate the feeling that I'm wasting my life. But at the same time the feeling that there's nothing valuable to put my time into.

Going to bed early because I'm bored is the worst. Especially because I'll probably lay there for an hour unable to sleep anyways. Hopefully no more boredom starting next week.

Only a week now and I'll be at my new home in New Jersey. Really nervous it won't be what I hoped, but I had to make a move. Staying in Ohio wouldn't be good for me when there's a whole world out there to explore.

After being rejected by people I hinged my entire life on, I made it a goal to never put my entire life's worth into one person. Unfortunately sometimes that causes some people to reject me because I don't "need" them. I've learned that needing anyone is dangerous. It's a tough balance.

If I say my ideal partner would be a soft dom, do people know what that means? Or am I still going to get people thinking I want to be bossed around and treated forcefully and not have a say in anything?

The poly urge to bring your partners and crushes/squishes together for a "get to know my partners" cuddle session is real.

There are some statements in life that you can never trust.
A mustelid saying “i don’t bite” is one of them

Going to definitely be searching out more board game cons. Getting to do my favorite activity and actually have fun things scheduled is a lot less stressful than furcons, where I spend the whole weekend chasing down people for intimacy that I desperately need.

Found a lot of cool people at the board game con this weekend. I should've questioned where they are at local meetups and why I'm stuck playing with people that have only 5 games they'll play.

Why is it that every time I'm about to move away from somewhere for not having fun things to do, there's suddenly fun things to do?

like this post if you hope the orange one successfully internalizes that there are people who care about it one day

Today was perfect. Got to play the board games I like to play, with people that are invested in them, and no one took forever on their turns. I'm actually so easy to please in the right conditions. Lmao

I'm always nervous when I meet new people and do things in the bedroom with them, they're going to demand I do things I clearly expressed I don't want to do, and get upset when I don't do them. Sounds ridiculous but I've been in that situation so many times. Do people not understand consent?

So "babyfur = pedo" is the drama at the moment?

Not going after groomers, abusers, rapists, distributors/consumers of child porn...

You're going after people wearing diapers, drinking from sippy cups and watching bluey?

I probably have like 1000 unplayed Steam games >_< and little motivation to play anything. But I do love new experiences.

So here's an idea, I'll just play each of them for an hour until something really draws me in.

Man, fuck puriteens.
Leave the babyfurs/ABDL folks alone.
So tired of this shit.

Looks like the official date for my move to New Jersey will be March 9th.

Time to enjoy (or trudge through) two more weeks in Ohio.

Shaming other people for having a perfectly harmless and consensual kink is one of the most timeless red flags in this fandom.

Streaming once a month just for life updates and playing a cool game here and there? Would such a thing be worth it or would people be confused?

Just vibing for #tummytuesday. Only 2 weeks until a whole new group of people can rub my belly!

WOULD

I need to play more Smash or Rivals 2 with people. Somehow there's still a lot of interest from me even after following them for so long. Legit stayed up super late last night grinding Rivals 2 with a friend.

Wow I feel really anxious and sad all of a sudden... I don't even know why... I know I'm almost certainly staring down the path of failure and yet I feel like I have to try.

It's been 10 painful years for me and I've been unable to get feelings of attachment for people that love me. It's reasonable I think to expect the rest of my life will be just as painful.