rei ✨️

i was also into l/light but i was more into the absolute trash fire gender confusion disaster that was mello. i wanted to be mello

narrator voice: it would take rei 15 more years to realize she wasn't cis

taught me how to write geniuses when I'm not that smart, made me really into control freak genuises getting absolutely railed, and death note was actually kind of shit so bsd is like the best thing ever comparatively.

i was obsessed with mello specifically and m/n definitely has some skk in it lol

me sobbing i don't need cups i don't need cups i don't n

trying to figure out if i have any embarrassing old fandoms and it took ages (most of them hold up!) before i went DEATH NOTE and then i realized, horrifyingly, that being absolutely death note pilled for several developmental years really primed me for being obsessed with bsd

for the record it was the line "a cross from a faith that died before Jesus came" that made me snap to attention, but the preceding line involves the phrase "suicide poem" so like

DUTSUDTUDT THE WAY IT KNEW WHICH PLAYLIST I WAS GOING TO ADD IT TO LMAO

sorry i can't do anything seriously ever

puts building a mystery sarah mclachlan on my bsd Playlist for dostoy but in an ironic way

kill the imposter syndrome in you head because not only is there someone out there doing it worse than you, they're also using chat gpt to do it

Anyways.

which i always do bc i don't mind but if someone was less fond they could just choose not to link/associate the work. i think only one of these people asked if they could write the fics haha

if it's on ao3 you can both ask and there's a thing you can do where you like... attach it as "based on" -- someone did it for one of my fics once and i was flattered -- ok update it happened 3 times and i didn't know bc i haven't gone to this part of ao3 BUT i can just approve the links

the googly eyes REALLY make it

you should!! that fic was my re entry to the fandom and i wrote it in like two days it was insane. it was really fun to write tbh. I'm glad you liked it!! i go back and reread it sometimes like. damn ........

i also peaked with the beast au. i have several peaks. i contain mountain ranges

genuinely love writing kunikida pov bc he's so self aware and constantly long suffering

in some ways i think i peaked with the kunichuudai 3some fic bc some of the funniest moments I've ever written are from that fic

i found out accidentally that he does have different expression depending on the choices so he'd smile if you won't piss him off 😭😭

ぬくぬく明主

흐흐..🤭

i have a plush seal named dostoyevsky and this is fine except sometimes I'm like "try putting dostoyevsky under your pillow for support"

oh this one is good

ohhh i knew of them but not their name! yeah i. literally fell out right at the end of the first division battle. i did watch the first 3 eps of the anime while drunk at a con once but

i have apparently already missed that joy as i don't know what that means

i peaked in that fandom with that riou/dice fic. what a great thing to leave off on. pretending the series ended after the first division battle except for the girls

cannot believe i wasted "i'm just here for the psych assessment" on a fucking hypmic fic. that would have been so good for a bsd fic but i was FOOLISH (ok, it was pretty funny for a ramujaku fic)

oh my god you gotta do it with sherly and liam HAHA

noooooo pokopia is out and i do not have a switch 2 yet 😭 boutta have some intense fomo

sorry you can't qrt this one with ur own, the randos were too wild 😔 steal it from the previous homie

Caved in and finally started watching Heated Rivalry