Cherry Wallflower 🍒🌸❤️💚

that there definitely ARE people out there who do >:3
From those who followed me while I still sounded pretty bad on stage, to those who met me for the first time during my florida trips post-2020, so even the friends I've made all the way here in korea.

The world of opportunity feels big now!!!!

Moving forward, I feel confident that I can "sell" idol to people who never heard of it before. I can "sell" the concept of "Cherry wallflower the indie idol" to people who never heard of that before. and if people still don't wanna take what I'm offering, that's fine, because I know-

I'm not sure how to conclude this thread with a nice summary of this string of thoughts lol.

Well, I'm finally confident and feel free enough to just go all in next month. and sure, I will still have weak points, but I hope people can sense a higher level of vitality and personality 🥳

No, I'm just an artist and I see my life as "art" as pretencious as some might think lol. but, I just see live as a movie, and you can make life into art, and you can use your body for art and you can make yourself into your own muse.

which was what had me spiraling for a bit. Because part of me thought, okay if I want to keep being creative, putting myself out there, make videos/music/art but... people don't really care... does that make me a crazy self obsessed egocentric maniac?

were there for ME. because, no one else was performing lol. So, it's not impossible. it's not impossible for me to have a crowd of people that are there and like me for me. I know it sounds sooooo silly but I had been going YEARS without this kind of validation.

but of course.......................... I had zero reason to worry.

Although, during that performance, I did hold myself back a bit. I was afraid to do "too much." Be too expressive to where it looks cheesy.

BUT that was the first time in my life where every one, all eight people LOL-

of course they're my friends, but I didn't think any of them listened to idol music, and they never saw me in person in this "form" lol. I didn't think they would make fun of me, but I didn't know if there would be some like, underlying confusion or just man idk!!

I think the breakthrough moment was the birthday party I organized in decemnber 2025 with 8 good friends. I did a live performance (uploading soon) that was like 30 mins worth, and beforehand, I had NO idea how people were gonna react.

it was hard to believe people at these shows were truly there for me, beyond just a couple of people and those who I knew personally. so that uncomfortable feeling of feeling like I'm just stalling the crowd from seeing the people they ACTUALLY like had plaugued my mind for years, even until 2025

a couple times a year at my OWN produced events. This had riddled me with major imposter syndrom. And because people on the line up of these shows I created were living in florida year-round, and building more local fans, I felt like,

do the performance itself was enough to fire me up. But as time progressed and I could understand better at what sounds good, what sounds bad, and actually trying to be a better singer, I started to be more self conscious. That, plus, post-2020 the main times I've been able to perform have been

I think people can tell there is some reservation there, shyness, and what have you. Maybe the last time I didn't feel so shy might have been... 2018? or maybe even 2017... when I was worse at singing and more confident in my dancing instead. the act of just being able to be on the stage and-

I'm afraid of coming across as arrogant, overconfident, "who does she think she is acting like that when her skills suck," and so on. Or worse, just plain unattractive. At the core of it, I physically enjoy the act of singing and dancing a lot, so I think I've rarely looked bored or tired, but...

It sounds really funny, but with my two upcoming performances in february during my florida trip, I think I'm really ready to like, go all in omg lol aghhhhh. but what does that mean? well, for me, it's when I fully commit to just, owning the fact that I might look like I'm doing too much.

update: I never found out what that call was about </3

Cherry Wallflower 💚❤️🍒 A B O U T M E 🍒❤️💚 Hello Blossoms, and random internet passerbyers, Cherry here! 😎I’m an indie idol and artist sharing vlogs about my original music, creative projects, travel adventures, life a...

I gave my vlog channel a makeover and organized every video into various playlists based upon the year I made them. Now, you can conveniently choose to watch certain videos from every single year ranging from 2011 to 2023 omg lol wtf is my life
www.youtube.com/@CherryWallf...

I got a call to the english classroom this morning and I couldn't understand a darn thing </3 if it was important, I guess someone would show up at the classroom or I would get a message, but... nothing. I wish I knew what they called for omg this is gonna take me hours to get over u.u !!!

I wish I edited this vlog right after the party, but maybe touching the footage two years later was meant to happen?

by the time it was cake... I was super tipsy. almost got caught myself on fire LOL.

Well, that's all the drama I can reveal for now. It feels soo embarrassing to look back at the footage, for other various reasons by yanno what? THAT'S LIFE.

one of my friends was soo into another girl at the party and like, they had so many interractions... didn't result in any real romance though </3

the party had a good turnout, so much more people than I thought! But, by the next year, half the people there left korea to either return to the u.s. or go to another country </3

one person who showed up who I barely knew... turned out to be an f-boy. he went there specifically to chase after foreigner girls. but I also didn't know THAT until after the party!

but omg the drama...

one person at the party didn't like that he was livestreaming... but I didn't know about it until after the fact! If I knew, i'd have no problem to tell him, hey cut the camera... deadass LOL.

him and his two friends (girls, if that matters lol) helped make the party quite fun and I knew one of the girls, I also met him a few times before, and other people at my party also knew him.

random life update: I still haven't given up on getting through my backlog of vlogs in... chronological order. I'm finally at the last vlog of 2023: my princess themed 30th birthday that got crashed by a twitch streamer and his pals. I knew him, I guess we're friends? maybe.... associates? lol but

YouTube video by Songkick Green Day - Kill The DJ [Official Video]

my guilty pleasure favorite from that time lol.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jW7V...

when... the trilogy... came out when I was 18, I hated everything about it because I thought they were so cheesy. Now... I kinda appreciate it for what it is: 40 year olds having a midlife crisis trying to keep up with the times after two narrative heavy concept albums.

YouTube video by Green Day Green Day - Hitchin' A Ride (Video)

I hated this song SO much when I was in middle school but now... probably one of my favorite singles lol. I just didn't get it back then pffft
www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Sc8...

Also people say "Warning" was their flop era, which yeah, but funnily enough that was probably the cd of theirsI listened to the most as a middle schooler