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Google results showing Peter Paul as Kutchek and David Paul as Gore featuring one and the same picture.

google made the ultimate They Are The Same Picture with these twin brothers playing twin brothers 😂

I am now lol! I’m watching all kinds of movies from the 80s to hunt for references, and this one just blew me away with how perfect it is for Dean

I'm so glad you like the premise and thank you so much for believing in me!! 💛

hahaha, it was and they were! there were some bold lunatics behind that kiss scene and I applaud them 😂

fair warning: it's a terribly silly movie, very solidly in the B-movie category with some hilariously atrocious acting
I had fun watching it, but I love the so-bad-it's-good campy stuff; also the leads are two twin bodybuilders who basically consist of generously oiled muscle for most of the movie 😂

I decided to watch The Barbarians (1987) because I thought from the poster that it could be Dean's gay awakening, but I did not expect it to be his incest awakening, too. amazing movie. 10 sickos out of 10.

one's own worst critic, as always, eh? thank you so much for your words, I'm deeply flattered and very happy to hear it! 💛💛💛

❤️the rage of a man💙

~19k, season 8 #wincest, explicit, established relationship, jealous alpha Sam, tired omega Dean

Chapter 2. Finding

archiveofourown.org/works/806263...

A four-card tarot spread: Page of Blades reversed (illustrated with Kevin), The Wheel of Fortune (illustrated with Rabbit's Foot), Justice (illustrated with Donna), and Four of Blades reversed.

okay, this week’s tarot spread is telling me not to quit writing but let myself have some rest, so I’m taking the weekend completely off from writing and everything related to it, so I can clear my head. thanks everyone for your support, I really appreciate it 💛💛💛

I don’t see any point in trying anymore if I’m never going to get my writing to the level I want from it. I spend all my time on it. it’s not getting better. I’ve hit my ceiling and am just banging my head against it. why bother.

I spend weeks, often months, on outlining and researching. I carefully plan every sentence as I write. I reread my writing all the time looking for things to edit.
it’s still nowhere near the writing I read, and I’m tired of it.

I once wrote a series of kylux ficlets based on a list of 50 different kiss prompts.
I have now started planning a wincest version.
this, of course, is a threat.

finished my "Mitaka writes a kylux RPF Caf Shop AU" fic at 40k and I think this is the best kylux fic I've ever written. it was definitely the most fun one to write out of all my fics across all my fandoms. I don't know if many people will want to read it, but I love it to bits.

the rage of a man need_more_meta Summary: Did you ever wonder how Dean dealt with his heats in Purgatory? Well, Sam did. And he didn’t like the answer.

❤️the rage of a man💙

~19k, season 8 #wincest, explicit, established relationship, jealous alpha Sam, tired omega Dean

Chapter 1. Losing

archiveofourown.org/works/806263...

#wincest

“C’mon, zombie Elsa,” Dean mutters, his teeth starting to chatter.

“Half-zombie,” Sam corrects him because he can’t go a second without being a huge smartass.

Which, okay, annoying but kinda cute.

exactly!

it's fighting for attention with a bunch of other fully outlined fics I have waiting their turn, but I'm trying to bring it higher in the queue (why can't I write everything at once, it's a curse 😭)

A Good - Better - The Best meme: Good: Richard Siken Better: Anthony Oliveira Best: The Bible

me choosing titles for my gay incest porn

revisited my outline for the rest of my wincest fantasy coffee shop AU and dear god, I really, really, really misunderstood the assignment.
(but I *will* finish writing it because I cannot suffer alone. this is a threat.)

more and more of my wincest outlines warrant the tags Canon-Typical Major Character Death and/or Canon-Typical Suicide. all of them have soft HEA endings.
telling myself that I'm just following the spirit of this cursed, emotional meat grinder show.

“Actually, I’ve got a date,” Sam says, a Molotov cocktail intended to set his brother on fire. Dean’s face tightens, the early lines around his eyes crinkling his skin. “Oh yeah?” It’s brash, but it isn’t honest. “What’s her name?” He doesn’t want to know. Sam doesn’t want to tell. “His,” he says anyway, and something new flits in Dean’s eyes, something dangerous. Not disapproval, no. Something wistful, something hurt, something possessive. It makes Sam mad, makes him cruel. “Okay,” Dean says, but it isn’t. “Okay,” Sam says, but it can’t be.

coming out of my writing meltdown by cranking up the angst in my already angst-filled wincest WIP.
Dean surprises Sam at Stanford on Sam's 20th birthday. it does not go as he planned.

I found a whole documentary on the hypothetical scenario that I planned for the final apocalypse! Gonna have actual science in my fic hehehe
And thank you!! 💛💛💛

came up with a KILLER wincest fic ending, and now I'm neck-deep in mapping Aztec mythology to the SPN world, so I can whip up a long, plot-heavy fic to go before it.
plot twist: I'm absolutely atrocious at plotting.

no weekly writing winner this week because I don't know what possessed me to think there could be anything to like in my writing. it sucks. I suck. this was a dumb idea, but then again, what did I expect from myself.

A four-card Tarot spread: Seven of Goblets reversed, King of Bones reversed (illustrated with Metatron), Seven of Bones reversed, Nine of Goblets reversed.

new tarot spread urges me to stop worrying about stats, accept that I’ll never be a popular writer, and take a step back to recalibrate my focus. Metatron reversed especially points to the unattainability of the dream to become a godlike writer. oh well.

/from a #wincest #nsfw scene/

His head swims in a mix of happy hormones and scary hormones, the danger adding spice to the pleasure without fading.

The wires in his brain are definitely crossed, but it’s too late to try fixing them.

I always worry that my plots are too dumb, especially my attempts at SPN case fics, but I've just spent 2.5 hours planning a case for a secret project and I?? actually?? like it??? such an odd feeling. might pass when I look at it again tomorrow lol.

I usually struggle with imagining non-canon activities for the boys, especially pre-series, so it makes me very very happy that you liked what I came up with for this story! 💛💛💛

more it is! and thank you so much, I'm really really happy that you enjoyed that story!! 💛💛💛

I've implemented the change that the cards encouraged, and I've been averaging twice as many words per hour than my standard writing speed.
which means. you know. twice more fic.
hope that's good news..?