Robin Of Broccoli

Caring after a child in pain who might be crying isn’t coddling them. It isn’t enabling them. It’s helping them feel and validating their feelings and providing a safe space for them to connect and build trust. It’s building resilience and strength.

Only that isn’t tough. It’s lonely and sad.

Daughter of broccoli is 9. I ask her about when she cries at school. I realize the kids are mean about it when she cries because they maybe haven’t been able to cry like that when in pain for a while. These kids: having to hold in so much cortisol just because culture is expecting them to act tough.

School is actually very depressing. They cut out 3rd recess this year (which is like why) and they’re already focusing on academic language (it’s too soon). They’re already assessing the wrong things and not allowing actual learning. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I was 3 when I first tried to die by suicide.

I’m also not sure her peers are nice or understanding. Which is for sure making her days longer. Right now it’s really about focusing on mindset and helping her separate what she picked up from her immature parents (letting that go) and what is actually hers (working more kindness into that).

**She inherited so much trauma from both sides intergenerationally. I’m prepared for the dysthymia and the PTSD. Both.

She then explained she didn’t remember much about her day “because it was just too long.” 😭

I told daughter of broccoli last night that we rushed her and expected perfection because we were stupid and tired as new parents and that she deserved better and that she’s good enough just the way she is. She nodded.

Daughter of broccoli told me tonight that she has a “shield of positive thoughts” protecting her for when her “thinking gets mean.”

😭🩷

We’ve drastically lowered our standards since then

It never hurts to sketch - a daily practice is so important. I just maybe wouldn’t expect the quick/inexpensive stuff to do what the good stuff does. 🤷🏻‍♀️ and I for sure wouldn’t expect the same results. 😉

I get it and you’re right about working with what you have. Was just thinking that you might not have to keep layering for sharp lines and contrasts with the tubes. Plus it’s much easier to soften the darker colors using the tubes. Plus those sketchbooks are cheap paper!

Any migraines? Had my first yesterday all day. 😮‍💨

***Yoga is the only thing keeping me upright and mobile (and pain free some days) at this point.

****my partner underwent surgery for herniation. He’s 42 with severe trauma.

Is anything working for you?

Yep. I get it. The overworked must be from the water for “soft”
What about tubed water color paints instead of the cakes, so you don’t need to fight the paint for either?

Mid back here. 🙋🏻‍♀️
My hunch - and it’s just a hunch - is it’s a trauma symptom.

Terrifying.

And, Let alone the funds to support it? 🤦🏻‍♀️

Fucking finally. JFC, MS

(Where they literally lied about the treaty and then sent the tribes on a DEATH walk)

In fact she is. Cackling from Kalapuya right now.

Not a single one. Maybe Bernie. Maybe. I know she’d at least get a good lecture about her rights. And I still wouldn’t leave her for more than 5 minutes.

It’s so fun watching Dems argue for states’ rights and Repubs argue for federal oversight. 🍿 My, have the tables turned.

Busting the taillight of a vehicle still isn’t grounds for public execution.

😔💐🩷

How many years did he have to turn around and do the right thing?! Zero sympathy for this trash pile.

I hope you rest peacefully knowing you’re not a billionaire.

Thanks George W Bush 🤬

Finding it difficult to give myself grace here because I kept falling for the same bullshit over and over and over and good friends kept warning me. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

Being an adult is also realizing all the bullshit you fell for 🤦🏻‍♀️