Behold! Two woven segments, perfectly matching up to each other! Now to do this at least two more times

A small win against emotional eating for today: when I went to make dinner, the portion seemed small compared to what I used to eat. I told myself I could make more if I wanted to. The fact that I've come far enough in my food security to tell myself that is huge.

*gestures to American politics*

I loved the Ancient Leshen fight and the amount of training and theorycrafting my group had to do to take it down the first time

A late Christmas present for my boyfriend 🤫

4 Golds, 3 Silvers, and 5 bronzes to go before I platinum both Monster Hunter: World and Iceborne!

When I was younger, others treated me as if I was supposed to have the (mental) strength of a god, and it has sapped what strength I have. Holding someone to impossible standards doesn't work, and in this time, it is important for me to recognize what a human is supposed to be capable of

A purple canvas banner with two vertical yellow stripes on each side, with two crossed daggers in the center

I made a Riften banner about a week ago. I'm very pleased with how clean it came out

New growth of the day: Sometimes, getting better at things requires that I acknowledge that I am getting better at things.

Today's 18th day since I quit my job with no plan, and I am just now realizing with my feelings upon waking up that I have never learned to take care of myself before my to-do list. That I treat my needs like little bars that have to be dealt with when empty but otherwise they just get in the way

My first piece of fine artwork I've done in a long, long time

The cleaned up design and basic color layout of the fox quilt design I made last month

For a Secret Santa gift, I decided to try my hand at leather working. This is my second project, and I really feel like I poured my heart into it. The person in question plays a selkie at a LARP I attend, and I tried to incorporate as many aspects of her character as I could.

Voices pop into my head that tell me I'll never have it back. That to try is foolish. And mostly, there is this nauseating feeling of guilt for even trying. Like there's some sin I need to atone for and it will have its atonement through physical pain and illness. It's a barrier that I struggle with

It's almost like being attacked by the ghosts of drawings that never came to fruition. Images flash across my mind, in rapid succession, of all these different things I *could* draw, each one adding to the feeling of disappointment and betrayal that I let this part of me go. That I wasn't enough

Staring at a blank piece of paper now, though, feels like torture. The inspiration is there. It is pure and light hearted and deep like I remember it being, but when I go to act in it, it is painful. No matter how clear the image is in my head when I sit down, it is destroyed the second I see paper.

I lost my desire to do art many years ago due to trauma/cPSD. While I've worked on many of the aspects of my life that have been impacted by it, it wasn't until recently that I've felt any desire to draw again. It's been probably seven or eight years at this point

I asked someone important to me today to watch me draw. I hope that, by having another person there, I might be able to put pen to paper, quite literally. Artist's block isn't always having no inspiration. I've had it before and I would prefer it over this.

A long process, but I am enjoying this glaze job based on Ghost of Tsushima. Hoping the firing process brings out the colors even more

Step one of a future fox comforter for myself. I'm hoping that next month I can get the color laid out and the design finalized

Going to be awhile in the future, but I just got concept art made for a jacket I'll be making for a larp character

I made a personalized necklace for my friend, and I'm very proud of it.