Parry Windurst

a cartoon of a girl standing in front of a rainbow with the words i feel so sigma ALT: a cartoon of a girl standing in front of a rainbow with the words i feel so sigma

I'm thriving right now

Hasn't enough been done already?

Please just leave me alone. I don't care for the snide remarks

Every copy of windows 11 comes with a dangerous uninstallible virus and it’s called Microsoft edge

Seen yesterday on a public bus in Heidelberg, Germany.

I would not boil my friendships down to being transactional or beneficial, nor do I think I treat anyone like a "commodity." Especially given that I was concerned I was not a good enough friend from the beginning. I do care about my friends, I was hoping that perspective was not lost.

They were my friend and one that I considered close. They may think I hold some ill will towards them or that i hate them, but I do not. I did not do what I did out of hate. I was frustrated by the way I was treated. I did not burn the bridge, I shook it. However, I did it the wrong way.

Nothing you can really do if your intentions are misconstrued or if there are assumptions made, which is why I don't make assumptions, and it was messier given irl friends were involved. I understand where they were coming from and I don't care if they even believe my apology. I meant every word

I know what I did was shitty. I wasn't going to double down or lie. I just wanted communication. There was so much uncertainty, and I just wanted everything to be okay. When the time came for a crucial conversation, I thought it was going somewhere, but it was understandably emotionally charged.

I felt and feel trapped and I don't know what to do. Maybe I can't do anything. I feel like I lost my friends and it is painful to think about. I try not to think about it and keep myself busy, but that might lead to my mental boiling over and crashing out again.

One of the weirdest things about the Final Fantasy Magic cards being revealed is how many people I've seen say "I know nothing about Final Fantasy."
I grew up when there were FF games coming out constantly and hearing this made me realize "Oh right, we've gotten like two in the last decade... damn."

I miss my friends

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