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@shadowislewd.bsky.social

Life's falling apart. Boyfriend broke up with me and all my masking techniques are gone. Please standby

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I may cum

29.11.2025 15:58 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'd like to think so

18.11.2025 02:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Some days are better than others. Idk what I'm doing. I think I'm doing the right thing but I'm so stressed. I'm scared. I'm trying to be a good dragon...

18.11.2025 02:14 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I wish I could smell the roses but it's time to get back to work. I'll be back soon.

09.11.2025 20:04 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

More screaming into the void. I'm not really getting better but I'm trying. The panic attacks and paranoia is getting worse. It's affecting my work too. I want it to end man. Why fucking me... I'm so tired..

29.10.2025 01:12 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I've lost 23 pounds in a month.

19.10.2025 13:05 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Love isn't easy. That's why I wanted to try stuff. You mean a lot to me. I'm finding out how much you meant to me... I'm around so many people and yet I feel alone.

Come back fox... I need you.

I want a forever fox. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss you... So much.. goodbye y'all.

19.10.2025 13:02 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

All I'm gonna do is stress you out further... Fox I wanna make it work. I'm just so scared you don't... And you don't want me to hurt me more. I want closure but idk if it's what I want.

I'm so broken and idk if I can do this shit without you. You became so much to me and now it's gone. Love hurts

19.10.2025 12:58 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

My entire life feels like it's collapsing in. I loved someone too much... He became a big part of me. I just didn't say I loved you enough. I wish I had. Fox there's nothing more in this world than what I wanna do for you. I want you back so fucking badly but I feel like you're gone.

19.10.2025 12:56 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

You left me for reasons... I don't know all of the reasons but the ones I do know I'm trying so hard to change. I know you're working on a list. But what if it's not enough? Idk man. I want to build something with you again. I truly do. Even with all this pain this has caused. My feeling's are there

19.10.2025 12:54 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

You want space I know.. I'm trying. This is the hardest thing I've ever fucking done. I think about you constantly. At heb when the sample people were out I turned to tell you.. You weren't there. I have so many things I want to tell you but I can't. I need to be strong. I'm so tired fox. I'm scared

19.10.2025 12:51 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I fight so hard and it's not gonna be enough I think. You are gone and I'm gonna be stuck loving someone who can't love me.. I'm scared. I wish I had started therapy sooner. Maybe I wouldn't have blown shit up. I'm a stupid dragon who doesn't know what to do. I just want you here with me so badly.

19.10.2025 12:49 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

It's killing me fox..idk what to do because I fucked it all up. You started to warm up to the idea of me changing and fixing things.... And then I broke down at afci. I should have been strong but all my masking hasn't been working. I'm so fucking scared.

19.10.2025 12:47 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I wake up with panic attacks and racing thoughts. I just wish we could spend time together again like we use to. Your laugh and smile made me so fucking happy. I was happy for awhile. I found a forever fox... But I wasn't a forever dragon for you. My thoughts are just constantly about you...

19.10.2025 12:45 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I can scream here cause one super close person uses this app. I'm constantly thinking about what I could have done. I want him back so fucking badly but I feel like I blew it at acfi. I got emotional and broke down. It hurt him. I just want my fox back so fucking badly I feel like I lost you forever

19.10.2025 12:42 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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The wall grows

14.10.2025 22:08 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm losing my grip on reality. If I disappear I'm sorry. This roller coaster of life is killing me. I can't keep it together for much longer. I miss him so much. I'm tired of fighting so hard for what?

03.10.2025 17:43 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

;3

03.09.2025 21:36 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'd like to

17.06.2025 16:40 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Me ;3 shame I don't think you're close to me. Otherwise I'd knock you up~

16.06.2025 00:01 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Thinking about you ;3

16.06.2025 00:00 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 8    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Anyone wanna help me clean up?

15.06.2025 23:54 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 7    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Come to Austin and I'll rut you ;3 and play with your tits

17.05.2025 13:50 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'd love to pound a caged otter ;3

17.05.2025 13:22 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I need some hole to pound

17.05.2025 13:05 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 8    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 3    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Who's gonna be at tff?

08.04.2025 11:48 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Elon can suck my nuts. Makes shit cars too.

28.02.2025 02:38 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm tired boss lol

28.02.2025 02:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Sorry I've been MIA again... Trying to make things better for myself. That just involves spending my entire waking day working.

I can rest soon I hope but fuckkkkk I'm tired. I started a business and am working 55 hours a week at my day job.

My horny has been off and on because of stress. BRB ;3

28.02.2025 02:11 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Sorry I quit using Twitter. I try not to support the products of a fascist.

13.02.2025 00:58 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

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