Silver's Vents

Ok I'm calmer now..I'm sorry

It's not like I'm good for anything except what I can do for someone else

I'm not trying to be attention seeking here, I genuinely feel like there's no point to my existence. But I don't have the courage to do anything about it

God can someone just fucking crash into me on the way home from work someday so the world can be rid of me

One of those days where I feel right off the bat that my brain doesn't work right. Everything feels like a race and I feel that I am unable to to avoid letting anyone down. It might explain why I feel like people are avoiding me and ignoring me

I feel doomed and I can't escape this feeling. I'm trying hard. But it feels like everything I am is in decline. And I'm scared.

It's what I'm supposed to do, but turning the other cheek becomes incredibly difficult when you know that person would not do the same for you in a million years. It is very difficult for me to forgive when it feels like I'm expected to just move on from being mistreated fairly quickly.

You're a very kind person

I feel that I'm slipping into the back pocket of everyone's lives and that I will never escape.

It does.. thank you 🩶

Thank you Zenny. I appreciate it

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever truly feel like I belong somewhere.

I know the feeling... I'm so sorry, Ian. I know it feels inescapable and it wasn't right. Just know that you have people in your corner. I'm here for you always

I'm getting angrier every day about how much time I have to lose for my job and how I'm still broke at the end of the week anyway

2/2 given the amount of cis people, even those who have tried to be allies, who've not gendered me correctly and made excuses based on some aspect of my presentation.

To some extent, it feels like even within the trans community, there's a lot of internal policing about how we're allowed to express gender. That conversation is being had, but I still think there's a lot to be addressed. I love my cis allies who genuinely just affirm me no question, 1/2

Lately I feel short of the words I really want to say to properly convey how much I care for my loved ones, but that won't stop me trying to find a way to express it.

I definitely am not about to..

Also if you're trans and unplugged from the situation we've been in for years I'm sorry, I'm going to assume you're either privileged as fuck or mistakenly believe that you can be a safe and protected pick me by saying you don't care about this stuff.

I love being subtweeted by someone who is clearly irritated I talk about and repost political content. Just unfollow me if you don't want to see it.

If you can see this account, I want you to know I love you, and cherish you in my heart.

Thank you... I really needed to hear this. The same from me to you, my dear friend. I love you too, lots. 🩶

Am I doing wrong by anyone

I hate myself for being too poor to move out despite working decently long hours every week.

I feel like I vary between being far too clingy and feeling afraid to bother people with a message every other day

I want to do a lot better about remembering plans and remembering not to double book or overbook my days. I really want to be there for everyone as much as I can be and I overreach to make it happen quite a lot. But I hope I can manage it better for the future so people know they can depend on me.

Misgendering is not a little thing. It's a subtle rejection of someone's identity and especially when someone has told you how they want to be addressed. A slip of the tongue hints at being seen as your birth gender and not your chosen one. It fucking sucks.