spencer 🧟‍♂️

methinks i want more caffeine

woke up at an absolutely ungodly hour today

mf either gets nothing or i body an entire pizza

my poor stomach 💀

dude my eating habits are generally fucking insane. it's like, a monster and nicotine all day or the first thing i put in my face is sine shit like an ice cream bar. never let em know ur next move ig 😭😭

lwk me

I haven't had pipeline punch in sso long it's sooo good 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤

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it's why i turn voice chat off if i'm playing an online game whenever possible cuz i don't wanna have obscenities yelled at me by racist dudes who don't like the pitch of my voice fr💀💀

the bills are definitely not quite right but i'm just happy this one included colourful money :)

i wish most dudes who play cod weren't pieces of shit bro i just wanna shoot stuff and have fun why are you being racist in vc 😭😭

my older brother

what do i do? he's been openly transphobic to my face. how do i get past that? he apologized and yet never acknowledged anything afterwards. he didn't reply at all. idk what to do.

life is really kicking me in the ass. my brother almost dying, having to move, my uncle dies, on the edge of my bank going into the red, now all this chaos with my brother and my family. fuck dude i hate this.

am i the bad guy here? i dont know. i dont know if i'm the one messing this up.

if I dont get a real job soon I might die here

i don't have any family aside from her. i wanna make up with my brother but after everything idk if i can. is it actually because he's an ass or is it because our mom has convinced me he is I DONT KNOW. this sucks. i feel like i'm insane.

i feel like i'm crazy. i don't know whats true. i understand why he hates our mom sometimes. but i stopped hating her a long time ago because she's my mom :((( she was never abusive. at least not to me? i guess? help. idk whats real rn. i should hate her? maybe? but if i do then I have nobody.

there's a reason I'M messed up. our shared trauma is our mother but...idk...what do i even do here? idk who to believe. she kinda messed my shit up a little but she's my mom. and he's my brother and why do i need to choose???? i don't know who's lying. are either of them?

there is a reason my brother is all screwed in the head. trauma and mental conditions. but he doesn't get to fucking take it out on everyone. i love him. but he's an asshole sometimes. but there's a reason he's messed up

fuck off. i don't care anymore. either leave me alone or actually fucking stay in contact, not pop in and out my my life every few months. he makes me question my sanity. and he makes me question who to believe. him or our mom. i don't know what's true anymore

how am i supposed to get past it? how do i believe 'you're the exception' no the fuck i am not. i asked me my preferred name and never even acknowledged it afterwards. you leave me on delivered for FOUR AND A HALF MONTHS. then pull this?

how am i supposed to look past the shit he's said to me? how he said he'd 'be civil and not say anything' when i told him i was trans? invasive questions about surgery and asking to be sure i wasn't going to 'cut anything off' and his general douchebagery towards literally fucking everyone.

older brother is back on his bullshit. trying to reconcile with me and i don't know how much i believe he's sincere.

i'll chainsmoke in his honour how about that

This store in the mall has a huge 3d rectangle that says in huge letters "DIE" and in smaller letters "FOR SUCCESS"

B*tch, I’m dying as fast as I can.

*"Fortunate Son" playing in the background*

Still need some help.
Share if you can.
Thank you.

not going to my uncle's memorial. loved him but i don't wanna cry in front on a bunch of strangers today