spencer.

all i wanna do is drink. i guess it really does run in the family

i miss my mom

i was clean for 211 days. and then everything fell apart so im here now

im nearly 7 months clean from sh and yet here i am, on the edge of throwing it all away. i literally have no other way of coping at this point and i fucking hate myself for it.

dude i need to lock tf in i just keep letting myself gain and it actually makes me feel so disgusting

gonna weigh myself in the morning

i got drunk yesterday and i wanna do it again

why is there always a postal strike when i have very important things coming in the mail?? this has happened two separate times. dawg i need my insurance card

i need to go back to the store and return my discount cards lol

hey guys im alive and a little hungover. spent the day playing mar io w my buddies. still feel a little lost but its fine.

stand by me! i love that movie sm

i think im develong alcohilosm

im so drunk im drooling

i cant type but jn havnibf a graag tina

i losve bring drunk j can fucjibg sleep

standing is hard

uodate im fucking hammered

getting drunk with my friends instead of relapsing currently

i invited my friend over for tonight so im not alone, i'll be alright 🫂

ok so i took a nap and it's 5pm

losing my mind a little guys

getting a new piercing is too expensive but r3lapsing is cheaper

i feel really really gross abt my body again

i fear im going to do something very stupid

also sorry for not interacting very much i want to die

idk if im survivin this winter im gonna be so real with you guys

fall is usually my favourite season. so why am i so depressed right now?

im in a very weird and admittedly dangerous headspace rn

i don't know what im doing or where im going. im just sorta wondering around

didn't sleep. time to go for a walk