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I only just now finished fixing my laptop after fucking it over Sunday night.

Also, if someone on Discord asks you to check out their game... don't. >.<

I hate my mother.

Also I'm very tempted. I could easily spend way too much on these, considering I have like... five characters I'd love to get done.

Much whine. I still haven't drawn up Sitka's ref sheet and there's artists I could probably afford to get commissions from. Much, much whining. >.<

Also no I don't want someone else to do it unless I know you already and we can discuss things.

A small update, just so y'all know what's going on. I have mild idiopathic brain swelling, enough to cause headaches. On medication to ease the headaches, and I'll see an (actual) neurologist in December to possibly determine a cause and/or fix.

Remember I said I should do a thing?

I did a thing.

Hey guess what? I have a BlueSky account! >.>

Maybe one of these days I'll use it more than once a month.

I forgot Telegram exists too.

I had a dumbass misunderstanding meltdown, apparently, because HEY I'm good at that. >.>

Now I'm mad at myself.

Do my stupid laundry and then try to talk to people like a freaking human being instead of whining like a giant dumbass child.

Yeah, I'm whining and bitching. I'm sorry. I don't really have anywhere else to right now.
No, I'm not doing anything stupid to myself. Not eating lunch and taking a nap is probably it.

Shower didn't do anything but make me wet and angrier and now my head hurts. I don't even know what to *do* right now.

Weeeh I have to reinstall FF14, something's fucking with it and preventing it from saving my settings. >.<

I think instead I shall nap because headache. >.<

I should ALSO doodle cause I need to create a logo. Logo? Pin. Yeah, pin, just the art for it. Though it'd be cool to turn it into a pin and then send it to everyone related to it. That'd be fun. I wonder if that's possible.

I should go poking around the pin creators I know and see what new and wonderful things they've created in the last, oh, year and a half since I paid any attention to social media. >.>

I have space on my pin boards.

Cat.

I need to get off my butt and draw a ref sheet for Sitka because I can't afford to pay someone to do it and I need her drawn properly.

Guess what I have no desire to do.

Me: I'm going to pay attention to BlueSky more often!
Also me: *forgets it exists*

That boy is all leg. Didn't realize cornish rexes were built like that. He's gorgeous!

My face is tingling. Ish? Feels numb but isn't? It's weird. I don't know why it's doing this or what to do about it, and it's driving me batshit insane.

Nothing else is wrong so *why is my face tingling*? Aaaagh.

Also I think my braingerbil died and it's hard to do anything with a dead braingerbil floating around in the slop.

IIIIIIIIIIIII don't want to send this critique back to Mom because she's going to shit herself and then come after me for it.

Found a couple of characters I hadn't done anything at all with, and now I'm trying to decide what to do with them.

Cats abandoned me.

Been ignored all day. Feeling terribly invisible and lonely. About the only ones interested in me today are my cats, and the two big boys have both injured me.

I want to draw and write.

I need to work.

I am tired and really fucking frustrated and aggravated with everything right now. I don't even want to bother friends.

My mother is trying to write a book based in BDSM and I'm trying to figure out what universe I've ended up in where that creaky old woman is even remotely interested in it.

God help my brain.

Does anyone in the DFW area know of a good hairstylist that could do a butch style haircut (like, be willing to take all the hair off the back and sides and fauxhawk the top *properly*) and then color it? Without it costing an arm and a leg?