Siscily

I drew a Christmas gift for a dear friend, Cherna. She and my jagdaw Sitka are married, and are just enjoying a nice embrace.

I have decided I am spending no money on Christmas gifts this year.

I have also decided I'm going to try to do something special for someone later.

Assuming I don't go crazy between now and then.

Crazier.

Hiding on Discord because I'm feeling like I've... done something wrong and managed to upset people or something, i don't even fucking know. I want to share pictures and things with a friend but I'm so out of sorts.

It's been a stupid, useless, unsuccessful day.

I should draw. I owe someone art by the end of December. Plus I wanna do my ref sheet for Sitka.

But I don't wanna do shit right now. Nothing I should or need to do. I just wanna... not be.

I only just now finished fixing my laptop after fucking it over Sunday night.

Also, if someone on Discord asks you to check out their game... don't. >.<

I hate my mother.

Also I'm very tempted. I could easily spend way too much on these, considering I have like... five characters I'd love to get done.

Much whine. I still haven't drawn up Sitka's ref sheet and there's artists I could probably afford to get commissions from. Much, much whining. >.<

Also no I don't want someone else to do it unless I know you already and we can discuss things.

A small update, just so y'all know what's going on. I have mild idiopathic brain swelling, enough to cause headaches. On medication to ease the headaches, and I'll see an (actual) neurologist in December to possibly determine a cause and/or fix.

Remember I said I should do a thing?

I did a thing.

Hey guess what? I have a BlueSky account! >.>

Maybe one of these days I'll use it more than once a month.

I forgot Telegram exists too.

I had a dumbass misunderstanding meltdown, apparently, because HEY I'm good at that. >.>

Now I'm mad at myself.

Do my stupid laundry and then try to talk to people like a freaking human being instead of whining like a giant dumbass child.

Yeah, I'm whining and bitching. I'm sorry. I don't really have anywhere else to right now.
No, I'm not doing anything stupid to myself. Not eating lunch and taking a nap is probably it.

Shower didn't do anything but make me wet and angrier and now my head hurts. I don't even know what to *do* right now.

Weeeh I have to reinstall FF14, something's fucking with it and preventing it from saving my settings. >.<

I think instead I shall nap because headache. >.<

I should ALSO doodle cause I need to create a logo. Logo? Pin. Yeah, pin, just the art for it. Though it'd be cool to turn it into a pin and then send it to everyone related to it. That'd be fun. I wonder if that's possible.

I should go poking around the pin creators I know and see what new and wonderful things they've created in the last, oh, year and a half since I paid any attention to social media. >.>

I have space on my pin boards.

Cat.

I need to get off my butt and draw a ref sheet for Sitka because I can't afford to pay someone to do it and I need her drawn properly.

Guess what I have no desire to do.

Me: I'm going to pay attention to BlueSky more often!
Also me: *forgets it exists*

That boy is all leg. Didn't realize cornish rexes were built like that. He's gorgeous!

My face is tingling. Ish? Feels numb but isn't? It's weird. I don't know why it's doing this or what to do about it, and it's driving me batshit insane.

Nothing else is wrong so *why is my face tingling*? Aaaagh.

Also I think my braingerbil died and it's hard to do anything with a dead braingerbil floating around in the slop.

IIIIIIIIIIIII don't want to send this critique back to Mom because she's going to shit herself and then come after me for it.

Found a couple of characters I hadn't done anything at all with, and now I'm trying to decide what to do with them.

Cats abandoned me.