Rawiyah Tariq

Queen behavior.

Rawiyah Tariq | Substack I am a Professional Facilitator, Writer,Speaker, Betazoid, Disabled, Neurospicy, Queer Kid and Kinkster. Click to read Rawiyah Tariq, a Substack publication. Launched 2 months ago.

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Got a scammer text yesterday.

They asked me how I was so I trauma dumped then asked them to help me write a sex scene since I'm struggling with the choreography.

Like seriously
Writing a sex scene is like writing a fight scene with more kissing and a different kind of penetration. 😭

As proof that queer longing can last a long time I tell my cousin about a 10 yr crush I have.

Cousin:You're not dating right now but put that in your back pocket😊

Me: Oh no never! I'd never talk to someone I have a crush on!!!! Why would I do that to myself!!!!!😱

Cousin: *rightfully walks away*

If you're reading this and you're going through it too I'm wishing you all the softness and support. Anxiety and panic makes life difficult but please don't give up.

My shoulders at my ears
And the helplessness of knowing that if I can barely be a passenger how long will it take me to be able to drive again

I feel like I'm deteriorating instead of getting better and I hate that too.

It's not pretty.
I hate the feeling of my heart racing
thinking I can't breathe and having to take shallow breaths
not being able to look at my surroundings as the car shakes around me
How cold the ice I have to crunch is on my tongue and mouth

I can't even look up while on the drive. I focus on my phone the music, anything to keep me from going into extreme distress so I don't make the driver concerned for my mental or physical safety.

Mental Health Post: I try to do one brave thing a day. Today it is leaving the house. My panic attacks have been so bad recently and that has increased since the election.

I can't get ATEEZ 's new song "Ice on my teeth" out of my head. Partially because San is a menace. But every time I think about it I remember that they don't actually have ice on their teeth in the video so I become annoyed.

I'm spending a portion of my day aroused and annoyed.

That is the stuff of nightmares!

Use the ... menu and copy your direct link. I followed you by searching your name without the @

Watching too much anime because we were driving around this blind curve with a sheer drop off when a large white truck going the opposite direction veered into our lane.

I didn't scream cuz I knew we were about to be isekaied by truck kun & I'd end up in a world with dragons as a level 100+ mage

I wish I could read one book while listening to a completely different book at the same time #Virgo #maximumefficiency