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Maintenance guy finally showed up to fix some stuff! Good news (?) is that they sound like easy repairs. Bad news is that as he was leaving he let out one of the nastiest, gag-inducing, smelliest farts I've ever smelled in my life. I'm dealing with a GI flare-up and this sensory ick isn't helping.🤢

This Halloween has literally been out for my blood. Ouch...😭 I'm okay now though! I think.

I mean, that was an emergency, so I did what I had to, but I think for the most part I'm okay with small spaces. IDK, we'll see how I'll feel once the actual MRI happens. Hopefully I'll be okay. I do like that they ask that so patients can be prepared and the techs can make sure they're comfortable.

I finally had the opportunity to schedule my own appointments today, one of them being an MRI, which will be my first time. They did ask if I was claustrophobic and I had to think about it for a sec. Then my mom brought up the one time I hid in a small closet with my hamster during a tornado.

12hrs stuck at the ER and just got home about an hour ago. On top of that I had to drive in a storm. I am DRAINED. It has been a rollercoaster of a day, but I'm glad my mom and I were able to get stuff checked out.

Today's been a long stressful day of dr's appts, with the last one ending in very scary news for a parent. Not gonna lie, I'm panicking & I wanna cry, but I'm trying to hold it in since I don't wanna add to an already stressful situation. I'm hoping we'll find a solution that ends in good results.🙏

Went to an event yesterday where my proxy was & while they were showing me some IkeSeries stuff, someone nearby said that they haven't played their games & in the squeakiest voice I said, "You should play!" Mouse mode strikes again.🙈 Even if my voice squeaks, I'll still share my love for the games.

I found it very funny that the little IG follow suggestions had the profiles of an old ex-boyfriend and the offical Nica Schwartz one Cybird made to promote his upcoming route right next to each other.

Ah yes the person I dated in the past and one I will be dating in the future lol

Not a fan of gooey and even when toasted it was still like that. That's just my sensory situation. But overall it was ok. IDK if I'd buy it again, but at least I tried it and I finally got to eat pizza again after not being able to for almost 10yrs.

Tried Daiya dairy/gluten free pizza today after being curious about it for so long. Taste-wise, the new recipe does taste like a normal pizza to the point where I was questioning if I was eating a plant-based substitute lol The only thing for me personally that was an issue was the texture.

Oh no! I hope you feel better soon!🫂🥺

I'll try 🥺 Hopefully I can get some more labs done to see what's going on and nip it in the bud as early as possible.

Went in for an ultrasound to see if the thing on my kidney has grown only to find out there may be something going on with my gallbladder and liver as well.
...uh WHAT?!😱

Thank you 🥺❤️

I have been feeling very physically and mentally drained for quite a while now, from things in my daily life to stuff happening around me. I'm trying to find some sparks of joy, but it has been hard. I just hope things get better soon. 🙏

Today was makeup birthday day and I did lots of walking/driving around town, incl. driving in heavy traffic in the evening. I haven't driven this much since before my surgery. I can't feel anything below my waist and abdominal muscles are tense. It was a good day though! Just physically exhausting.

So it was covid after all. I ended up going to urgent care first thing in the morning. Man, why me?😭 I feel like I got hit by a bus. Hopefully I recover faster than the first time I caught it.

I had my suspicions earlier if I caught the new covid strain, but thought nah maybe it's just laryngitis. I'm starting to get muscle aches, chills, and nausea on top of the symptoms I mentioned. It's starting to feel similar to when I caught covid 3yrs ago. NO PLS NOOO 😱

Ugh, I hate being sick. I can't sleep bc my throat hurts a lot and I keep coughing and I can't breathe properly. I mask everywhere I go and take precautions, why meee?😭

I wrote a Gilbert thing last night of my own version of the birthday sets we can buy on our birthday month and I'm sorta cringing bc I know I tend to write very cheesy stuff but at the same time I haven't written in so long and at least I finally did something.

Today has just been extremely mentally and physically draining. Also an emotional day because I finally got a diagnosis that answered a lot of things about myself that I've been pondering for a very long time. It's a bittersweet feeling, to be honest.

In less than 30 min. I was happy as a clam to get a 5 star Kagari in IkePri only for it to quickly go away with the news that IkeVamp EN is no longer updating. I legitimately want to cry, I'm so heartbroken.

Spent half the day at the doctor since there were some complications and labs and I ended up getting injected with medication. However when I got home I noticed a painful side effect and idk if that's normal or if I'm gonna need to go to urgent care at some point. Hopefully I'll be okay.😓

I don't know what's been going on with my health as of late. Weird symptoms keep popping up, one of them being frequent dizzy spells that has been making me a fall risk. I'm seeing a doctor soon so hopefully I can get some answers.

I have settled on what IkeSeries cosplay I'm gonna do for the con and I've already committed by getting some stuff today. Hopefully I can pull this off!

I just need some motivation and a confidence boost since I haven't been feeling the best about myself lately and I want to shake that off by using cosplay to express myself and having fun in it. Here's to hoping whoever I choose to cosplay goes well!🙏

I've been heavily leaning towards Roger since he seems the easiest, though his extra mission gear might be a small challenge. I have made something similar when I did AoT survey corps cosplay years ago with all the straps, so I could use that experience to make it. IDK, we'll see.

Been brainstorming IkeSeries cosplay ideas for a con but I'm having issues such as:
1) Needs to be mobility friendly due to my mobility issues (I'll adapt with time)
2) Has to be easy to make in short time
3) Don't know if I wanna do the original suitor look or the lady ver./route release set outfit

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