sei

oh my god i haven't come here in months
i'm mostly on tumblr now

I want to go somewhere far
Somewhere the hands of imagination do not reach

But this room is the universe, 1/1 scale
I write and write and make sounds
I proceed while waving a white flag

🐶
#reverse1999

#reverse1999

Can you believe it?
They told me they never thought about dying
'You shouldn't stay happy'? What does that mean?
But I couldn't tell them 'you wouldn't understand'

There's only a closed future
I can't even be your second
So!
I want to grow up because you're no longer here
I wanted to keep loving you

I'll live without breathing
Forced to spend each day just under the water's surface
A helpless whale stops drifting
Holds a revolver with a real bullet
The firing hammer withers in the end
A totally mediocre empath

My brain's reward system has been broken since birth

It's just the same old story
I don't want to listen to it
There's nothing further to talk about
It's probably too much for you

White flag after crying my eyes out
Raise it and stand up, that's enough

came back to bsky and WDYM A SUISOH LYRIC BOT EXISTS NOW /pos

久しぶりです

long time no see

水槽 [ for suisoh @ MOTTO MUSIC × TOKIQIL ] 🌊

A red-haired person on a train wearing a black suit with a red tie and glasses, with a book partially covering their face.

suisoh keeps putting out music videos where i look at their character and go "god i wish i could look like that"

My prof compared the art business to food: AI is just stale fast food and will never compete against the home-cooked dinner from your local restaurant. It's also the time, thought, personality which makes human art unique and irreplaceable.

#arcaea score dump

does arcaeasky exist lol

omg fire 🔥🔥

start and finish

I tried designing an OC based on a chicken🥚
#characterdesign #originalart #digitalart

#Avemujika

x-ray film

Making yourself dependent on external appreciation is very dangerous. I did this and it ruined how I perceive my own art:
I started to hate my art even though the moment before I posted it I was content with it.
So don't let this negate all your positive feelings you had towards your work.

new suisoh banger dropped
youtube.com/watch?v=tb9K...

<Escape the mortal coil>

For 2025 I don't want to chase specific art goals. I want to feel good about my work without having to get a certain level of expertise first. I think enjoying the process is more motivating than striving for this distant goal just to feel approved when I have reached it.

两位双马尾热恋期少女
白石杏「借用一下こはね的口红可以吗？——不是这个哦～」

とりあえずきみつづ宣伝しとこ

I'm just realising that it's okay to not draw and create every day and that "unproductive" days are completely normal and needed in order to preserve the joy of making art. I always feel bad when I take a day off but it prevents me from burning out myself.