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btw i got that 1kg tub of strawberries for £2!!!! 😭😭 i love that my student building is near the markets smmm

so happy to be back at my dorm with my mini fridge 🫠

my only pretty meals from today </3

rlly embarrassed abt the last couple days but tmrw im back on track fr 🙏

oooo i’m obsessed with game of thrones so i’m def on board with dragons!!

15/04
weight: 57.4kg
water: 3L

just keeping it real, i think i ate like 4k calories today, probably purged only 1/5 of that and bedrotted the whole day 😍

honestly any kind of bird, i’d just rlly like to fly

it’s rlly cringe to think abt the fact that i let myself gain weight the first few months i was living alone and legit rinsed my bank account on food every day lmao but i’m not going to be making that mistake now cuz i barely have any money 😔

i asked my brother if he could drive me back to my dorm tmrw and my mum is upset that i’m leaving early but i rlly need to be alone :/ i feel like i just have to lock myself up with no tempting food around me or anything

has anyone genuinely found the answer to overcoming binge urges or what cuz this literally feels impossible

i just can’t stop myself from eating

i rlly hate myself man

i can’t believe i ever weighed 10kg less than this like genuinely how did i used to be 48kg and now i can barely make it below 56

i can’t do any school work either when i get like this. i’m so scared of failing but i don’t know how to get myself out of this situation

i don’t know what to do it’s been like a year and a half of this and i’m so so tired

i’m so sick of binging i’m so sick of myself and giving into every fucking temptation

no i def taste some peach too, i think that’s the only stone fruit i agree with 😭

yeah i rlly wanna try every flavour!!

trying this flavour for the first time, apparently it’s ‘stone fruit’ flavour but it kinda tastes like orange & mango to me

i feel like i fucked up my day already even tho i technically know that’s not true, i can make it a good day if i want to. just bc u crack ur phone screen doesn’t mean u need to shatter the entire thing 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

tysm all ur replies have been so reassuring </3

ik i should stop comparing myself but seriously How are there ppl at bmi 14 walking 50k steps a day while fasting wtf

like wtf 1.3k is basically a normal diet for a normal person. this is fr so ridiculous

do u genuinely think 15k is a lot? 🥲 i’ve been comparing myself to others walking 20k, 30k, 40k etc and i feel like it’s not enough

idk i guess after being in a binge phase for so long suddenly trying to eat between 1k-1.2k would be hard ?? maybe ? like am i supposed to decrease my calories gradually ? i feel so guilty eating at maintenance or doing high res, i genuinely don’t know what the answer is anymore

i’m so fucking fat why am i still hungry after all this food ????

not having my mini fridge in my room and being able to drink diet coke when i get hungry at night is so tough 🥲 can’t wait to go back to my dorm

14/04
weight: 57.3kg
water: 3.75L

feeling so guilty ugh

why do i have a demon inside my head trying to sabotage me and why do i almost always give in

sorry for spamming sm 🙂‍↕️ i’m only active on this app when i’m actually focused on restricting and exercising to help me pass the time. otherwise i’ll be binging and crying whilst watching youtube or something LOL