Moe

What a long day. I’m craving Thai coconut curry and have everything I need to make it, but all I want to do is medicate my cat, change into my pyjamas, then fall asleep watching something that makes me happy.

Oh, I know. I’m not waiting until he feels horrible to bring him in. I’m just relieved that we’ve gotten to have a last couple of days where he is feeling so much better and so much more like himself. But he’s dying and without the medication he’s on now, he wouldn’t be OK.

It’s the very hardest. Especially when the meds are making him more like himself right now.

I’ve been watching bad rom-coms all day.

Remembering Kirsty MacColl who was born on this day in 1959.

Whoever uses a leaf blower at 7:30 am deserves a wedgie.

I wish it would just stay dark all day. It always feels more safe, less stressful. I don’t have to answer to anyone. No decisions need to be made.

Well. This is terrible.

Photo of a sweet blissed out medicated orange-beige and white longhaired cat called Minou, resting his chin an the side of a very comfortable cat bed.

Minou is medicated and has been eating more today than he has in several days. He’s still enjoying scritches. I may seek out medication of my own after all of this. I’m still grieving the loss of his older brother Eli who died from a nasal tumour earlier this year.

Poor Muriel knows something is up and has been calmer than usual around Minou and staring wide-eyed at the human with the mournful noises coming out of her.

We returned today for an ultrasound and the vet confirmed that it’s lymphoma. He has a mass in his stomach pressing against his kidney. They shot him up with pain meds and an anti-inflammatory and told me to monitor him closely the next 24-48 hours, but to be prepared to make that decision.

Went into urgent care w/Minou tonight. He got fluids, more meds. The vet thinks it’s abdominal—possibly a mass. She urged me to take him to my regular clinic for an ultrasound tomorrow, talked about quality of life/euthanasia. I’m an absolute mess. He peed in the carrier on the way home.

Naw. It’s the least I can do. I wish I could do more.

Yeah. I’ve been fostering and adopting for over 30 years. I’ve dealt with renal failure, hypothyroidism, auto-immune disorders, saddle thrombosis, heart issues, asthma, etc. This is new.

I wish I had someone to come do my dishes, heal my cat, make me food, and just hug me for a while. I really hate this whole living thing right now.

Minou isn’t eating today, even after meds. He!s super low-energy and I’ll have to force-feed him again.

Thanks! I hope so, too. I adopted him in 2013 when he was 11 months old and he’s never been sick a day in his life until this year.

Legally Blonde!

They could only run a limited number of tests on Friday due to my limited budget. They gave him a physical, ran a full blood panel, a urinalysis and a test for pancreatitis then gave him fluids and some meds. I’m getting antibiotics and scheduling imaging tomorrow when my GoFundMe funds transfer.

Better today with meds, although we don’t know what’s wrong.

She’s so sweet!

I haven’t eaten in almost 24 hours. I probably should.

Close-up photo of very alert looking fluffy b/w DLH tuxedo kitty named Muriel, patiently waiting for me to pull out the laser pointer

This little one has been wondering why I’ve been sitting on the bed with her older brother all day, watching each and every little nibble he takes. I took a break and we played for a while.

If he’s not eating or drinking on his own by Monday, she wants to consider 48-hour hospitalization to put him on an IV. :-/

His pancreas is fine. His thyroid is fine. The vet thinks there’s a chance he has a minor kidney infection, but wants to wait until after the weekend. They gave him fluids, an appetite stimulant, an anti-nausea injection, and sent us home with meds. She wants to do imaging next week.

Bloodwork was fine. He’s getting a urinalysis and if that’s clear, will be tested for issues with his pancreas. If that’s clear, we’ll likely be sent home with an appetite stimulant and we’ll return after the weekend for further tests.

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Minou’s hopefully going to get in to see a vet today.

Did he?

I will never get used to getting up when it’s dark out. It doesn’t help that my apartment is pretty dark to begin with. This is also the second night in a row I turn on the heat in my bedroom (for kitty Minou’s osteoarthritis).

Ugly cried when I got home from work today. My vet’s office said to call first thing in the morning to see whether they have cancellations tomorrow. I’ll be syringe-feeding Minou in 60-90 minute intervals this evening, then at some point in the middle of the night and early in the morning.