Faeith

Social Anxiety is so difficult. So many people talk to me later and go:

I've wanted to meet you for a while but I was too shy and nervous

And then there's me. "What really? I just thought you hated me! I wanted to meet you too!"

And then we feel silly together for ages later. XD

#resonite

Thanks to @dingerfox.bsky.social for capturing the moment!

Sharing the beauty of Galaxy and I both going 'A' at each other in desktop mode!

Hunny, seeing you swing by a few times has been delightful. You made me smile just be you appearing! And I hoped you were doing well! <3

Awww Charrrr. This is so sweet. Thank you! I just want to draw or help in anyway to raise the right way. ♡♡

My companion robot has a little companion of his own, a palm-sized spiderbot.

#Blender

I am no longer hosting or being in public on Resonite for some time. I've struggled long enough with being treated like crap for actively enforcing rules and boundaries in my space. I've been reported too many times for my MOUTH; and for deleting objects with it is considered NSFW! I'm done, sorry.

Sneak peek at what I've been working on for a public avatar . . .

W o t

I.. I will try. Thank you kindly.

It's quite alright. I'm just. Struggling a little bit. My mental health is not perfect - and we all struggle in different ways. For me, I often vent openly like this to seek some form of reassurance due to my anxieties seeking answers written down. I... rarely join places. I feel I'm not welcome.

Your presence and self are a delight as always, and I always desire to see you happy. Whenever you join I feel my heart wants to make you comfy. You have an aura about you. You and Moon. I just want you to feel no burdens and to take them all away from you. You deserve so much more.

Sadly.

Resonite is making me feel less welcome day by day.

And I'm once again debating leaving.

There's a place for everyone.
Everyone, except ... me.

I'm straight. I'm single.
I'm asexual. I'm a woman.

I remain isolated.
An alien among furries.
Hated for having boundaries.

I don't block/ban people.
Rumours.

This hurts. Stings. Burns.
Please... make it stop.

I love too much to hate.
Help.

🙟 FANCY FODDER 🙜

A work in progress world I created out of impulse. Inspired by 1920-40 Art Deco.

Using the Resonite Default Dawn Modular Kit + Custom Assets. (I.e. Elevator, UIX Canvas, Radios, Etc). Sending love and thanks to friends.

Worlds > Headless > Fancy Fodder

#resonite #fancyfodder

Thanks @dingerfox.bsky.social !

🌈 🐈

#art #chiki

Needs dressing. ♡

I did nothing.
You can't prove I did anything.

#resonite

Yeye!

I am golden loot! 💰

:D

#resonite

Yesterday. I had an experience of a new user who pat my head without consent. I clearly moved back and stated politely: I'm sorry. I do not wish to be touched. Thank you.

And from there they proceeded to spend 30 minutes talking to a friend in ear shot about how they DID NOT understand my reaction.

It's a toon gimmick. If you see it as other, that proves to me where your priorities and imagination lies. And I respect it but I'm going to keep to my perception. My friends see it my way. And if you don't. Then I'll stay away respectfully.

P.s. My mouth is big. I have big teeth. I do funny chomp stuff. And I do like nom stuff AWAY from ANYONE. I dare expose anyone to it without consent. I have a literal CUBE MESH on my face that deletes items parented.

*Sighs.* I'm trying hard. I love everyone. And despite popular perspectives. No one is banned from my worlds. No one is blocked by me either. :man_shrugging:

Sorry if this got a bit personal. And I'm nervous posting this. But it's here.

Done.

My worlds? I do nothing in them but build with friends. They're open empty fields. With all ages joining. No nsfw activity happens. I dislike nsfw. I dislike lewd. And if there are concerns. Don't spread things. Please. TALK TO ME.

I don't leave my world.
Due to fear. And I'm letting it get to me.
I shouldn't though.
I shouldn't care if someone dislikes me.
I shouldn't care if people spread dirt about me.
It says more about the person I don't want to be around.

And I don't want to do that! I love it here. It's just getting too much. I may be over thinking but I get told enough I'd be missed. *I doubt that.*

I worry. I care about what people think or say. And I know not everyone gets along. But the key importance for many with Anxiety. Is reassurance. Mature discussions of what's wrong. Resolve. Move on. But I have sat in the dark on this platform for so long I'm debating leaving for my own health.

The main issue with Anxiety/Panic Disorder is I endlessly loop fears without being able to control it. If you don't tell me what's wrong and I see you avoid me/whisper about me etc I will build panic daily until I actively have a irl physical panic attack. Because. Again. I care too much.

What I'm trying to say is.

I'm sad people don't communicate with me. Am I really that scary? I know I'm emotional and some don't want to talk to me in fear of hurting my feelings. But in fact. It just makes it worse.