Sanity

Me too!! Me too!! Is there any due date?

Today I was refused in buying box of sticks for Iqos. Do you know the reason? Because apparently having a new haircut made me loose ten years. Woman in shop was absolutely fucking sure I’m under 18 and bullshiting her.

I’m 26…

I mean… I dunno if I should be grateful for compliment or offended🙃

Btw, I was dying black myself for years, simply buying box from supermarket or those Wella professional (affordable in you’re planning to use it all).

Morale - stop experimenting with hair after 25! Better black than none. I mean it. Two years ago vs today

Even cut some strands myself because it wasn’t possible to exist. Today I was sick of it, cut half of everything I had on my head and now I’m back to my 2016 era with bob cut. I’m not happy - I hope this time I won’t struggle with brushing it. I want black long thick hair back, i hate cut and colour

Cut them off again. Shorter. And dyed again with Olaplex or similar shite she said it’ll certainly help. I thought like ‘it’s fine, they’ll grow out again’. Aha, in less then 3 months, it started to be soooo damaged because of the dye, I couldn’t brush it without plucking half of the head.

Thought to do wolf cut, did it. It came out so pretty, weight was off but the image of thick hair remained. Then I went to one super popular stylist… and it was huge mistake. She dyed my hair red that didn’t hold a shite - washed out in *days*. Then worse - I thought it just damaged ends and…

Let me share a thought. I’ve been trying to to grow hair for a long time. At 20 I had thick hair in every sense of it, only thing it always was very hydration demanding. At 24 I decided to stop dying black and go into auburn. I did, and it was pretty nice, even alive somehow.

cw: angst, major character death

wish you were here. #ghostsoap

Oh gosh the colours are sick😍😍

Yooo… id love to try!!

Thaaaasnks🥰

im not really sorry for feeling horny

#sketches #dick #pose #colours

quick mindless sketches

#colours #sketch #digitalart #tiger

Thank you!!💜

Did drawing for @neko-knight.bsky.social

Enjoyed it, loved it, loved the result, and the opportunity to work with OCs. As well as opportunity to see what is going in my brushes set.

#knights #oc #art #colours #stylised #drawing #digitalart #linework

You can’t even imagine how fucking much those words matter to me❤️🥲 though, idea to wear my OC into armour is dope

Thank you!! I’m exploring this love further, so wait for more, I guess👉👈

Love you! Thank you!!

That’s thing, I’m following @blanchebees.bsky.social for a long time, and their drawings are bloody INSPIRING. I’m like a huge fan. I didn’t know that I have a knights kink thing, but now I definitely do.

(It’s WIP drawing so)

#knights #digitalart #inspiration #colour

That’s us, three peas in one pot. These two asshole will never know how am I grateful for 5 years in row, even if it’s just discord, and not irl. They helped me out through hardest moments of my life and they still do.

#digitalart #colour #battlefield6 #art #stylised #pink #story #friends #oc

I’m mad af. ArtStation refuses to save or upload this project. I dunno. I’m upset.

#sniper #art #colour #stylised #idkwtfamidoing #digital

Today’s sketches. I know, right? Hyperproductive today aren’t we. Robert is biggest hear me out btw. And I’m satisfied ending game with no romance, because both girls are very fucking questionable.

Here my bullshite don’t mind it:
#sketch #colour #bull #dispatch #robertrobertson #fightclub #art

Chromatic aberration I love it sorry. And there is so… random colour pallet - first link in google. Ref from Pinterest. Just a half of hour work, not sure what I wanted but I like it. I like messy style, but adore fine line and suck in both. I’m alive. Still. Unfortunately.

#art #colour #men #draw

For the years, me and my discord lad have this ultimate and constant eternal argue about way of beating Frostpunk game. I’m the one obsessed with Order, while he’s always choosing Faith. So it is base for an art for day 18 inktober DEAL theme. Hope you’ll guess the movie
#inktober

..even when I *need* to. That’s a pity story, I know how miserable it is, true enough, but the life isn’t beautiful for someones. For me it’s a fucking dense forest and instead of axe I have a bloody shovel to dig myself own grave. And yeah, that fucking hurts - seeing them, while you alone for 8 y.

Most of those people are happy. Not alone. Happy. Loved. Wealthy. I really wish sometimes life would pay them same coin they did to me. But it still doesn’t. I barely taught myself to be less anxious, less self-conscious, but *barely*. I still don’t trust people, I’m still not talking first, even..

By the way, in school I was a looser. I hated school, because of kids. They took my trust and shattered it into pieces because I wasn’t thin. I was perfectly curvy, healthy, sporty. Never learned what’s the fucking confidence since all I heard was bullying. Now those people have own kids…

I’m tired, really. Posting this stuff for myself, thinking myself it will help. What exactly. How exactly it works. I feel to shy to make sorta add, don’t feel like I’m worth to. Dunno. Just.. tired of being looser, but understand that will never be any more than that.

Oh, BTW, texts on papers are real written reports including main storyline, so.. yep. It’s too pixelated to read though, but maybe I’ll attach notes later